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#223 - Lil Xan | The Tim Dillon Show

Welcome to the Tim Dillon Show, everybody. Special episode today. We rarely do
guests,
but we're having this guy on. Yeah, thank you so much. Yeah, no, it's fucking
great to have you
here. We're an odd pair, me and you. I know, people wouldn't think, really.
People wouldn't
think. People look at me and look at you. It looks like it's like a big brother
program where I'm
like trying to- Yeah, you're trying to like mentor me and show me the right
path. Trying to help you
out, except you have so much more money than I do and more fame, you know?
Probably not. Yeah,
I'm like, you should go this way. And you're like, naturally, you should relax
and do what I do.
You should get a face tattoo, Tim. Yeah, you should.
How many? I'm thinking about getting a tat for the first time in my life.
Oh, you don't have any tattoos? I don't have any tattoos. Oh, wow. What are you
going to get?
I don't know. Because we're doing this crazy tour, me and my opener, Dan, and
we're all
over the- It's a weird time to do comedy because- Yeah, it's a weird time to do
anything, I feel like.
We're a time to do anything. And like, we're thinking about, you know, maybe
getting something
to just commemorate this crazy fucking little tour that we're doing. And then
like, because
we do it, we end in mid-November. So we have like, we go through the run-up to
the election,
the election, and then a few weeks after the election. We just fucking don't
know what it's
going to be like to get up in front of a room full of drunk people. Oh, man.
When shit's wild.
Yeah. I wonder what is that like? I mean, you have a lot of experience. You've
probably already done
that. Yeah. I've never done, like I've been doing it the last couple of weeks
and people are tense.
Are tense right now? They're tense right now because they haven't left their
houses.
Yeah. And they're- But they're coming out to the comedy.
They're coming out to the comedy club. Yeah. But this is like, they're just
going out again.
And everybody's got real strong feelings about the election. My audience is
really divided.
So I got people that are like, Trump's got to win again. And then I got people
that are like,
Trump's the devil. And then I put them in a room and then I pour alcohol on
them.
Oh my God. And then I try to make them all laugh for an hour and get away with
my life.
Is there any like crazier cities that you've been to more than others?
I think Phoenix, Arizona was drunk. They were drunk as hell. They were drunk
and they were
partying and they don't think COVID's real at all. So no mask wearing? They don't
fucking-
They were coming afterwards trying to do like a meet and greets after the show.
And I'm like, dude,
it looks bad. They're just trying to make like a meet and greet? Like, all
right.
They were trying to just grab me and they're like, come on. And I'm like, and
it was fun,
but I mean, it's like, it looks bad. Yeah. God forbid I get sick or they get
sick.
But the internet will go. The internet tries to cancel you if you aren't safe
with anything.
Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. You've gone through that a lot. You've gone through people.
Why do you think you're so controversial? People-
Well, I think the most part of my name, Lil Xan, just coming onto the scene, it
was just already-
What is the name? Explain the name.
Well, back in Austin, Texas, what year was that? Like 2016, I was just crazy
off Xanax. I was trying
to be a photographer. My camera had just gotten stolen. And I remember we were
on like main street
or something. I just walked into liquor store and my friend was like, man, you're
always high off
Xanax. Like I'm gonna call you Lil Xan. I didn't think anything of it. I was
like, that's stupid,
but funny. Right. That's the fun. That's a fun development. Yeah. Right. And
then from there
on, I wasn't even thinking about making music, but all my friends made music.
So I got back to LA.
You were thinking about Xanax. Yeah. Only Xanax, you know what I mean? And then,
yeah,
I got back to LA and I was like, well, just all my friends make music. Let's
see what happens. And
just from there on, the controversy followed. Yeah. Yeah. Do you feel like a
lot of young people
follow you? Definitely. A lot of, a lot of young female audience for the most
part.
Yeah. That is not this demo of this show. I'll tell you right now.
That's what makes this crazy. Yeah. This is not weird. This is not a 19 year
old girl show.
Uh, the women who come to my live shows have all been to prison. Like that's
the type of woman
that we can listen to this voice for hours on end. They love you though. Yeah.
They do like me.
They do like me. They're just, so do you feel like your responsibility to live
a certain way?
Cause you're like all these people. Oh yeah, definitely. Uh, more, more and
less recently,
I had a little hospital scare about like a, like five, six months ago. I was
sent to the hospital.
I was trying to just quit everything cold Turkey, uh, Oxycontin and Xanax
mainly. Um, but I had
five seizures and when one day five seizures and it's, it put me in the
hospital for a couple of
weeks and I got out and I just stayed clean. Cause I was like, bro, this is
going to kill me.
You know what I mean? Yeah. I've been trying to, I've always tried to be a good
role model against
an advocate for not taking drugs. Like I was, I was never like, yo, you gotta
be like me.
And I was just letting people know that, you know, we, we go through this, this
struggle.
You're not alone. And I, I just recently come off it. And this is the best I
felt in my whole life.
You know? Yeah. You look great. Oh, thank you. You look like you're, you're,
you're,
you know, you feel like you're in your living. Yeah. It's like its own type of
high, actually.
Just be this coherent. You know what I mean? If we would have done this podcast,
like a year,
a year and a half ago, I would, you would have been sleeping. I would have been
asleep.
Yeah. I would have been yelling and you would have just been asleep.
Yeah. But now what do you feel like, is that better for creativity to, to be
sober?
Uh, I'm not, I'm not going to argue against like drugs. Like, uh, they do help
some sort of aspect
of creativity. Um, but you could be just as creative without drugs. You know
what I mean?
You just got to find inspiration and find like a good balance and you can be
just as creative.
Why are there, what, why? Like, I, I'm sure I know the answer because comedy,
there was so many drugs
and now there's not as many because so many people died, you know, like Greg Giraldo,
you know,
all these people that, that died, I mean, you could, you, you go back and there's,
there's a litany of
people that have died from drugs and being unhealthy and stuff. What do you
think, like a lot of the
tragic deaths, whether it's Little Peep or Mac Miller, do you think they're
making people really
kind of think about how they're living? Cause these guys are so talented.
Yeah. So much potential. Does this making people think about stuff?
I think it's definitely showing people, you know, the repercussions and what,
what, you know,
what can happen, you know, it's a shame that we lost Mac and peep and all them
such talented,
like artists, dude, and young kids and young too. You know what I mean? Um,
just so much potential.
Um, yeah, I think it's definitely, but if you, if you go back in time, this is
always people,
young people have always been dying of drugs. You know what I mean? Like in the
limelight
is what I'm saying. Uh, I think it is making people a little more aware,
but man, when you, when you fall down that rabbit hole of addicted to drugs and
stuff,
it's hard to get out. It's tough. Yeah. I mean, I was, I was an addict for 10
years. So like I,
I started doing coke at 13. Oh yeah. So yeah, I was, uh, I was, um, yeah, I was
bad. It was bad
from 13 to 25 and on and off cocaine, booze. How did you manage to get off of
it? I started doing
standup when I was 25. I bought a house when I was like 22, coped out of my
skull. I got a subprime
mortgage. I bought a $600,000 house. The house was worth maybe 350 and I mortgaged
600 grand cause
it was back in the days when you could do that. And, uh, I was just every night,
I was just drinking
every night, Coke, you know, drowning in debt. And, um, but I would tell people
about it and they'd be
laughing and I'd be like, I'm, I'm saying the worst stuff. And they would just
laugh. Oh, like,
this is really funny. And I'm like this, I'm, I'm literally going to die. And
they were like,
this is really funny. And then I just was like, oh, I want to maybe start
making people laugh.
And then I just started doing that at 25 and I sobered up and I've been sober.
I'm 35 now.
It's about a decade. So how was, how was the, the sobering up?
It was tough, but I, you know, I did transfer addictions, right? So like from,
from drugs to comedy, like I did transfer it. Yeah. So instead of doing drugs,
I would do comedy three or four times a night. Like that was what some people
try.
Yeah. It took your mind off of my mind. Yeah.
Something like I had a friend got sober, went into fitness.
Yeah. I did not do that, but he did that. He went another way.
I wanted to stand up and I was just like, you know, I just got to stay,
you know, I, I plugged my head into another world.
Yeah. That's a, that's actually good that you're talking about that.
Cause people, that is a big thing of, if you want to get help with addiction,
you've got to find something else to occupy, you know, your mind and stuff.
And that's like probably the best advice you maybe can give somebody is just
find something else to something else to occupy your time.
Yeah. And even if something you love or you're passionate about,
it makes a big difference. I've seen a lot of people,
like you said, go into fitness. That seems like, that's a natural high.
It's natural high. You treat your body the right.
Like my opener is like major in a fitness and that,
which I didn't even know is a major, but you can major in exercise in school.
I should have gone to college. I had no idea.
And, and he, he, he's, he's great to have around because he's like,
you know, every now and then he's like, you know, he's like,
you gotta, you gotta reign it in a little bit, you know,
which I don't always respond to.
Well, like we were at the store yesterday and I got mad and because he was like,
I was like, we should get all this ice cream.
Maybe little Xan will want ice cream.
He's like, is that just an excuse for you to have more ice cream?
Yeah, for you to get ice cream?
Yeah. And I was like, shut up.
I do like ice cream though.
Yeah. See, see.
Yeah.
Should've got him some ice cream.
We have cookies and cream though.
Oh yeah, yeah.
But so now what, what are you, you're 24.
life because you were not a guy that when you were growing up like me I think
people were probably
like this guy's not going to succeed oh I was the same way yeah they're the
same way dude um if you
saw me in my early 20s I was drunk coked out yeah driving a car with no
insurance no I mean just bad
like no like and my license has been suspended it's still suspended like yeah I
mean I was just
working in a subprime mortgage office barely selling those yeah fucking for me
it was uh I
I dropped out uh freshman year after after attending three months of high
school I was like
three months of high school yeah wow crazy three months of high school yeah I
couldn't do you gave
it till Halloween yeah and then you were just like fuck that shit yo the
problem whoa yo the problem
was the the people I felt like I was trying too hard to uh like fit in you know
be the cool kid
yeah and I was like man I I could tell that I was becoming like something I
wasn't right and I was
just like I can't do this I like to play video games right I dropped out spent
probably the majority of
what would have been my high school experience playing video games not not
talking to girls I
was a fucking you know were your parents like yeah cool with that or oh 