Name: Theo Von On His Relationship With A Higher Power
Uploaded: 2020-02-07T21:00:00.000Z
Description: Watch the stand-up comedy video 'Theo Von On His Relationship With A Higher Power' from Theo Von Clips on Comedy Buff. Published 2020-02-07. Transcript available.

Watch the stand-up comedy video 'Theo Von On His Relationship With A Higher Power' from Theo Von Clips on Comedy Buff. Published 2020-02-07. Transcript available.

What up, Theo? This is Cross from Oklahoma.
I went to go see your show at the Tower Theater when you were here, and it was
amazing.
Oh, thank you, brother. Yeah, in Oklahoma, man, it's a beautiful area over
there.
And one of the managers at the Comedy Store, this gentleman, Curtis Nelson, is
an Oklahoman.
And he's probably one of the top 60 or 70 decent men I've known. Onward?
And I'm sitting here watching this past weekend at my house, and I'm just
curious.
You give a lot of credit to your higher power, and to be honest, you sound like,
the way you talk, you sound like you believe in Jesus, you believe in God.
So I was just wondering, how come you don't say God whenever you say your
higher power?
Or do you just not believe in necessary God and that there is just a higher
power?
Anyways, man, keep doing you. Gang, gang, brother. Love you.
Gang, gang, bro. Love you back, playboy.
You know, sometimes I say higher power.
You know, my God isn't like a real name maniac.
Some gods is a real name maniac, you know.
Call me this. Call me that. Call me Henry, you know.
But, you know, I believe in God, man.
And I know some people don't. That's fine with me.
You know, I think God is a personal choice.
And for me, I think I need a God.
I don't do the best job of believing in Him sometimes.
I know a lot of times I do my own will.
But, you know, I just think it's taking a chance, man.
It's taking a chance to believe in God.
You know, to say that there's something out there.
Because sometimes in my brain, I can't, I don't want the best for myself.
You know, as sad as that is to say, or as hard as that is to say sometimes.
You know, sometimes I don't want.
You know, I'll just be having either just be feeling depressed or just not good
or just.
I don't know, or just.
You know, sometimes I don't want the best for myself in some ways.
I can't even explain it really.
Sometimes it's easier for me to expect not good things to happen.
Because then I'll be able to say, oh, I told you so, you know.
It's easier for me to expect, you know, to try and like.
I don't know.
I don't know.
I mean, I know what I'm trying to say.
It's just sometimes it's hard for me.
It's been hard for me this past year to really connect to some of my feelings.
But I believe in, I believe in God, man.
I believe in a higher power.
And it's a God of my understanding.
And I believe that you can have your own relationship with God.
I believe that.
And for me, I'm glad that it's there.
Because.
It's fascinating to me sometimes that even when I don't care about.
You know, sometimes when I don't care about myself.
I don't have the strength or the, you know.
It's, it's, it's.
It's amazing to believe that somebody does.
You know, that something out there really does want the best for me.
And that to me, that's God.
You know, I believe that God wants the best for me.
And that's scary to think, really.
Because a lot of my life, you know, I think growing up and, you know, just in
my, and I'm not, and look, I'm not feeling sorry for myself right now.
I'm not being hard on myself.
I'm just trying to share my feelings and talk on myself.
I'm not having self-pity right now.
I'm just trying to share my feelings.
You know, believing in, believing in a higher power is scary, I think.
It's risky.
And most of my life, you know, I felt like God, like, God didn't care.
I felt like God didn't care about me.
If I'm real honest.
Or, it was just way easier for me to admit to myself, to say to myself, oh, God
doesn't love me.
You know, God doesn't love me.
But the older I get and just the more, like, just little blessings that I see,
you know, it could be a smile in somebody.
You know, it could be somebody answering the phone when I called them.
Somebody who I don't even think.
I don't know, man.
It can be times even when I don't want to spend time with someone and I choose
to because I know it's what they need.
I'm not trying to say that in a selfish way, but just, you know, I don't even
want to make the choice, be like, oh, to do that.
And then something will come over me and say, oh, no, I need to do this.
It's not about me.
Yeah, and there's just too many of those coincidences eventually where, you
know,
I just have to admit that.
That there's, I believe that there's something out there that wants to see me.
And that's, you know, that's, you know, because a lot of my life I felt either
unloved or unlovable.
I, you know, or, uh, or I just felt like I didn't care about others.
I don't know.
I just, I don't know, man.
A lot of it's a new relationship for me.
And it's one that I'm trying to just try my best with.
Um, and I don't have any of the answers.
Uh, but for me to believe that something that doesn't even know me really,
has always loved me, like, really loved me, man.
Like, loved me no matter what I did.
You know, that's, to me, that's, uh, that's pretty, that's, that's a power
stronger than anything I could do.
Um, so I kind of don't know what I'm talking about, but, um, I, I, I say my God,
because I think that different people have different gods.
Different people have their own gods.
I don't, you know, I don't, I don't get into God fights.
That's not my thing.
Um, you know, and, and also, I don't know, man.
I have no idea, but I appreciate you calling and asking and, uh, and be good,
bro.
Be good out there, you know.
Um, you know, sometimes it's just so, it's so hard for me sometimes to love
somebody else, man.
You know, I'll use, like, uh, I'll use my care, like, my ability to care about
others.
I use that in relationships.
You know, I've used that before as, like, a weapon sometimes.
Um, like, I'll keep, like, I've kept my care away from somebody.
Uh, like, even though maybe I love somebody, I kept my care.
I kept, you know, I, like, I use my care as, like, a weapon.
Like, oh, you know, um, you know, I just, I, I would love to one day be able to
be at a place where my love and care for others isn't on a, like, a scale type
of basis.
You know, isn't on a, uh, isn't on any type of exchange basis at all.
Um, you know, or that I don't, like, uh...
I, I mean, I would just, I would love to be able to, you know, I think, I, I, I
think that one day I would like to be able to love somebody no matter what.
You know, because that's how, you know, that's how, that's how, uh, you know,
that's how I would like to be loved probably by someone.
And I've never really been able to do that shit.
I never really have felt examples of that and stuff growing up.
And look, I'm not having self-pity.
I'm not fucking down in the dumps right now.
I'm not being hard on myself.
I'm just trying to share, uh, things that I think are things that I'm thinking
about.
You know, I know I'm hard on myself a lot.
People always come up to me at this show.
Man, don't be so hard on yourself.
I know I am.
Um, uh, you know, sometimes it's the only way that I've ever known to be, dog.
Thank you guys for checking out this clip.
And if you want to see another clip, then you can look at this clip or this
clip, either one of these.
So did you pick one or are you still just watching me do this?
Because this is alarming.