Name: When The Laughter Comes Back | Tony Mandarich & @TheoVon
Uploaded: 2020-12-14T20:31:15.000Z
Description: Watch the stand-up comedy video 'When The Laughter Comes Back | Tony Mandarich & @TheoVon' from Theo Von Clips on Comedy Buff. Published 2020-12-14. Transcript available.

Watch the stand-up comedy video 'When The Laughter Comes Back | Tony Mandarich & @TheoVon' from Theo Von Clips on Comedy Buff. Published 2020-12-14. Transcript available.

when did you start to get like a new perspective kind of march 23rd and 95
walked into that
treatment center and i remember thinking to myself like i can picture that that
stainless steel door
like industrial door and thinking to myself the fun's over yeah and but i was
like i'd rather be
boring and sober than miserable and drunk or an alcoholic life and 11 days
later i stayed in that
17 days at day 11 i started laughing again and uh my gut hurt from laughing
that day wow and i was
like i forgot about that you noticed it i forgot about that feeling that
powerful and i was like
i don't know what's happening but i'm digging my claws into it and i've been
laughing ever since
damn even on the tragic days there's been some kind of laughter even if it's
been internal
like amusement in my own head like it's you know like we make fun of our poke
fun of ourselves oh
yeah i don't have to sit and laugh out loud to be you know put things in
perspective but you know
even on days where my mom died three years or three and a half years ago it was
like a hard day for me
and and and and really it was like the harder year after it was harder for me
than that week that
you know that she had died and stuff because you almost have stuff to do that
week yeah i kick into
like you know i gotta get things done there's responsibilities i gotta you know
make sure
things are right and then once you sit you know that passes and then you sink
in and then you're
not buying that ticket to go see mom in november like to see her for christmas
because you're like
mom ain't there gone that's when you're like fuck that's heavy um so you so you
went into there you
started to get better yeah yeah like day 11 started laughing again and then
yeah those little things
man you notice i i remember having uh a thought that made me laugh i remember
just driving one time
and um and i've struggled in and out over my five years in recovery but i've
never given up on
on the program or or trying to uh you know i haven't given up on that path yet
in my life um
and i'm trying it new now you know trying it again um but i remember yeah a
time when i just was
driving down the road and i laughed just by myself and i was like fuck i haven't
done that in months
just the little things that were like um that you just came or just like i
remember i woke up in the
middle of the night one night and i didn't have a thought in my head and it was
like jesus christ
this is so nice isn't that nice the noise is not there yeah just like
especially for someone like
you yeah well it's like somebody started it's like somebody left something
plugged in that's rattling
like 40 years ago and it's rattling all that and i can't find it put a twist
tie around that thing
something i'm just sitting on your front porch wondering how could i be so far
from my home
and my mind is somewhere else but when i find it i'll patch up where it's been
blown