Name: Sean Strickland Gets Real About His Past Trauma
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Watch the stand-up comedy video 'Sean Strickland Gets Real About His Past Trauma' from Theo Von Clips on Comedy Buff. Published 2024-01-03. Transcript available.

right now life is good i got money i got a belt dude everything is good but
like you gonna pay me
to go fucking relive my life like you said hey sean you want to go hit the
restart button like
fuck you really fuck no but what if you got to a place one day where you were
able to like
like be because at a certain point i think like people from a tough environment
become inspirations
for people from a tough environment you know oh yeah no i mean i i get guys
like will call me
crying yeah i mean i've heard some of the you've got man you get some crazy too
dude yeah
yeah we get some guys that have been through a lot of stuff dude and the guys
that are perverts
everything really that guy that's me oh my god dude this is you before the dude
because you had
a motor you had your motorcycle accident you think after your motorcycle
accident you became a different
guy you think so when i was younger i was like a pseudo white supremacist yeah
right i can believe
that right who would have thought that i mean i was like the pseudo white
supremacist i'm gonna
i'm talking about like let's just say like six to like dude a lot of that yeah
we all go through
that i'll go through that as a white man yeah anyway so i was like i'll tell
you why i look like in
that photo so i was like dude i mean it was rough man like i kicked out of high
school for hate crimes
did you really yeah yeah i didn't graduate high school i didn't graduate
elementary school and if
kids miss a certain amount of school the parents get you know the parents get
go to jail so me in like
third grade just ditching school being a idiot you know staying home to watch
the porn box like
i'm sorry i'm thinking about the porn box in it's all right so so you out of
the home do you watch the
porn box you're the communal one and then like all of a sudden my mom gets to
call like a letter in the
mail saying hey if sean's gonna go to school you can go to jail so now she has
a choice homeschool my
kid has she had a full-time job or go to jail damn so my little mogli ass i'm
like the wild one dude
they put my ass homeschooled i didn't go to school i didn't read i don't think
i learned how to read
until i came in adult you know i was homeschooled dude imagine i wasn't socialized
bro i was like a
dog that you have to go let people pet you know like nobody nobody and where
was this at where were you
guys in an empire in inland empire so i go back to school ritzy yeah so i know
now i'm like in seventh
grade and my mom's like we should probably put this kid back to school right
like worse thing she
could have did and did you ever were you and so you were you had some education
at that point i mean
but it's hard i've never like they try to hold me back in kindergarten like i
mean i was like zero dude
like thank god for computers man so anyways i go to seventh grade and i get
kicked out of school for
like a hate crime so what they do is did you really do it or not i mean i
probably just call somebody
a hit or drop the in bomb like it was probably you know it was like but it's
also a different time
bro it's different time like racism was way more common back in like you know
20 years ago yeah
so anyways i get put in this thing where they isolate you they put you in a
group that they let
you in school like two hours later and they let you out like two hours earlier
so they try to keep you
from the kids so i started ditching again i got homeschooled again to middle
school i went back into
high school uh ninth grade i got kicked out of school for a hate crime i think
i uh i don't know
i beat up or something i mean i beat up i i beat up a guy to miss you know i
don't hate gays yeah no
i don't hate anybody i don't think i uh i don't know there's a couple people
that i really don't
like but like i had a lot of like dude i had a lot of trauma you had a lot of
anger yeah a lot of
trauma growing up you know i had this piece of grandfather he was super racist
big white man
you know did he like you at all you think though no he did you know he did but
like you know you're
a kid with a piece of father and like you just gravitate towards anything
masculine and like
this is a big old white racist redneck and i'm angry so next thing i know dude
i'm like right you're
just saying racist that you heard at the house yeah exactly so i get kicked out
and then i started
training like nine like ninth grade i started training and then dude like i
realized i wasn't
a racist i was just angry i mean i'll never forget you always tell people the
first day i trained i got
the kicked out of me covered in blood bro like first moment in my life i ever
felt happiness first
moment in my life i ever felt happy and the kicked out of me just all the anger
the gone why do you think a
lot of it just comes out when you're because i had a moment where i was uh like
i was just training
jujitsu for a while and there would be times after the end of class where i
would just kind of start
tear like just so much emotion would come out yeah all the anger but i mean
again dude like
you know i mean why i got so mad drag it's like i went through like pretty
severe trauma yeah kid
like pretty up trauma like i could sit there and joke about it but i mean dude
i remember i i remember
i've told the story once dude like i was in probably third fourth grade and man
uh i always always sleep
in my mom's room because i thought my dad was gonna kill my mom so like i would
like sleep by the door
i'd sleep to make sure she was all right yeah i'd sleep under the bed you know
i'd sleep by the door
because i thought my dad was gonna kill my mom so like one day dude is so up
like it was just got a bad
fight like third fourth grade and i uh my dad's like that he's not sleeping he's
not sleeping here
tonight he's not like kick him out and so i like army crawling to the bed i'm
sleeping under the bed
right under the bed under the i'm like laying on the bed like just laying
underneath the bed like
as they're fighting because i think my dad's gonna kill my mom wow he was that
violent yeah he's just
coward you know so anyways like i mean we had like dogs you know or white trash
and the house was like
flea infested you have a dog under there with you no no dog was there with me
but i remember laying under
the bed and like fleas were just like jumping all over me you know and i'm like
i think there might
have been like a dildo next to me i get you not dude oh yeah this kind of like
orange looking carpet
so picture like me like third fourth grade yeah laying under a bed fleas
jumping all over me there's
a like dildo next to me yeah yeah it sounds like a japanese game like who puts
a dildo underneath
the bed but it's not sanitary like put it in your drawer yeah let's put it in a
drawer that has a
bunch of gum and coins in it yeah under the bed of the fleas yeah dude damn
that's scary so anyways my
dad gets on top of my mom she says like i remember he said like i'm gonna i'm
gonna kill you
i'm gonna kill you tonight it gets maybe just rough sex we don't know at this
moment right and
you're under the bed i'm under the bed so he starts strangling her and i get
out and i the only thing i
see his guitar i just crack him in the head call the cops and then he gives a i
run down the street
he calls cop gets arrested my dumb ass mom bailed him out of jail oh but it's
like i mean even that
like i mean that was like i wouldn't even say that's tip of the iceberg right i
remember like being a
little kid so i would always miss school because my dad would get home drunk
start drinking at like six
he would get home at like seven and and like just be up it's like three in the
morning just
like tell my mom tell him drinking tell my mom she's a whore he's gonna kill
her like
and i remember i used to like what a loser huh sorry to say that about your dad
he died of cancer but
anyways he's out of cancer now yeah yeah he died of cancer yeah you know
probably from the hate inside
of him yeah i hate to say that he was just drugs he lost lots of drugs uh pain
pills why i don't do
drugs so i remember like i used to sit there and just kind of like hug my mom's
leg in the in the
kitchen you know like we had this little nook and she would like go in the nook
and i would just sit
there like all night long i'm by like the feet of my mom and my dad like i'm
gonna kill you
and this and that and i'll never forget like he would talk about like like burn
her face with acid
then mind you i'm in elementary school i'm in elementary school right so like
so that's a lot
of responsibility then you feel probably just to like take care of your oh yeah
yeah no you'd always
tell her that like if you cheat on me and she probably was cheating on him if
you cheat on me
i'm gonna like cut you up and put you in a bottle of acid and bury you so now
you fast forward this
like i don't go to school i'm up till three in the morning and i i couldn't
stay awake in school
like so like i remember i was like in third grade no second grade and i kept
falling asleep at my desk
and my teacher took my desk away from me and she made me like like stand up and
so me i'm like
you being this little kid i just went and fell asleep on the ground and mind
you like the school
systems like oh sean like he's just a bad kid they don't realize i'm up till
three o'clock in the
morning like you know late i mean dude i remember it's hard to stay up late and
learn dude i remember
like laying in bed like i remember i stopped believing in god man like fucking
like i had
fucking um yeah it's crazy dude crazy man yeah it's okay man it's a lot of that
sad dude i used
to be scared at night like uh i used to stand up like i heard when i was a kid
that like if you peed
around your like animals could pee somewhere that other animals wouldn't come
you know i'm talking
about you know what i'm talking about uh yeah have you ever heard that
yeah i'm sorry bud so
i'm sorry buddy it's all good dude
we don't have to talk man i can just sit here with you for a minute
oh oh six seconds
i can just sit here we can just it's all good you six seconds just process it
i think
some hard things that people don't understand like trauma you know yeah
uh sometimes it just comes out oh no dude like i remember uh i have a hole in
my gum
yeah when i was a kid i used to scratch my gum and i have a hole in my gum
you know just from being nervous and stuff no just anxiety you know yeah yeah
even to this day
yeah i mean today dude like i'm a grown ass man i don't give a i mean you could
post this i don't
care oh dude i don't have any no it's all good dude i mean it's this is what it
is dude like it is
what it is like people understand like when i talk about like oh i kill a man
it's like you don't
understand you're like when you go through that level of trauma like you just
viewed it a little
differently you know so it's like i have a hole in my gum because i'd have so
much anxiety as a kid
and i would just scratch my gum until like i'm just blood you know and you know
you're like you're in
pre-alimentary school you don't know why you're doing it yeah yeah i remember
like like
you know like you don't even know what it is when you're a kid when you're
really talking about
like being a little kid like laying in bed like just like man i'm just i'm done
with this you know
like there can't be a god that makes me yeah it's up dude no it just makes me
sad that a kid has to
feel that way you know yeah so like any kid whenever drakus goes on there and
like he jokes about that
right like dude you have no idea yeah i mean and this is like as a comedian you
gotta joke about trauma
like people think like i joke like i joke about all this like you know as we're
laughing like
you gotta joke about like you gotta joke about if you don't like how do you
process that you know how
do you how do you process that kind of abuse i mean i'll never forget my
brother my brother we were
like upstairs once and he taped and he taped knives he was laying i mean we're
talking elementary school
he wasn't gonna go sit on the couch with my dad and stab him dude like you know
it's like
that's like that level of you know yeah
makes you kind of want to kill a man but yeah yeah you i mean we all got we all
got
your brother a pretty nice guy yeah he's all right you know he's a close friend
yeah
it's like it just gives you like just you can't yeah you can't deal with
but yeah man life's good i make a lot of money now i'm happy but you know did
you think like
because yeah i remember being so scared when i was a kid like i was saying like
i remember hearing that
like animals if you pee like animals if the animal pizza another animal wouldn't
come so i would stand
up on my bed at night and i would pee around my bed in a circle because i was
afraid that things
were going to get me who were you afraid like any particular just everything
everything i mean
i was just afraid of everything yeah well i mean you never you didn't really
grow up with a dad
you know like i understand yeah i just didn't have anybody just teach me about
anything i was
just like an i was just felt like uh i don't know i think i felt worthless
probably yeah but
then i think we're not having a dad's rough dude like i mean you had a dad but
like
yeah but i think not having somebody like communicate with you or treat you i
don't know
i don't know what it was but i was just really scared yeah that's why i think
when i see a lot of
you guys like i think there's a lot of guys out there who i wish i could have
been even able to
defend myself in my neighborhood or anything like i didn't have anybody look
out you know i just didn't
so i think you know you see guys man like you guys it's like at least you know
even though you're
fighting each other it's still like well you got to learn you got to want to be
violent i mean there's
some guys like you know there's some guys like john jones who's just a he's a
athlete you know he's
just like there's some there's a lot of athletes and there's guys like me who
were like if it wasn't
fighting bro i would be jail i'd be in jail like it's not like like to have
like you don't understand
like i truly have a deep down urge to kill somebody like i can't it doesn't go
away like i just like
i don't know what it is man like you know you just think like yeah it's up dude
you know so like when i train it gives me tools to process it but like there's
definitely something
inside me that like tells me that like the moment i take someone's life and i
wind you we could
probably agree that it's because you have so much trouble and you're victimized
it like that's your
way of like protecting you and saying that if you go and kill somebody like you'll
be happy and i would
like i would if you could let me kill a man like happy as i can't but right
some places yeah some places
right but you know you're pull up in memphis but see i don't know like a lot of
times i don't know
what it's like to talk to normal people yeah i have some people who know
exactly what it's like
who've been molested who've been abused you know and it's like i have some
people know you know been
beat up these people know what it's like but you go talk the average person
like man you just don't
know it's like some people do but you don't know what it's like to be able to
like the only thing
and like that would make me happy is the fucking literally cave in your fucking
skull and like
the only thing that would i truly want is the fucking like make somebody hurt
fucking hurt yes
you know and then the problem is like it makes me vol it makes me volatile so i
don't really
even this day like i don't go out much can't trust yourself probably i can't
trust myself
Thank you.

Sean Strickland Gets Real About His Past Trauma

right now life is good i got money i got a belt dude everything is good but
like you gonna pay me
to go fucking relive my life like you said hey sean you want to go hit the
restart button like
fuck you really fuck no but what if you got to a place one day where you were
able to like
like be because at a certain point i think like people from a tough environment
become inspirations
for people from a tough environment you know oh yeah no i mean i i get guys
like will call me
crying yeah i mean i've heard some of the you've got man you get some crazy too
dude yeah
yeah we get some guys that have been through a lot of stuff dude and the guys
that are perverts
everything really that guy that's me oh my god dude this is you before the dude
because you had
a motor you had your motorcycle accident you think after your motorcycle
accident you became a different
guy you think so when i was younger i was like a pseudo white supremacist yeah
right i can believe
that right who would have thought that i mean i was like the pseudo white
supremacist i'm gonna
i'm talking about like let's just say like six to like dude a lot of that yeah
we all go through
that i'll go through that as a white man yeah anyway so i was like i'll tell
you why i look like in
that photo so i was like dude i mean it was rough man like i kicked out of high
school for hate crimes
did you really yeah yeah i didn't graduate high school i didn't graduate
elementary school and if
kids miss a certain amount of school the parents get you know the parents get
go to jail so me in like
third grade just ditching school being a idiot you know staying home to watch
the porn box like
i'm sorry i'm thinking about the porn box in it's all right so so you out of
the home do you watch the
porn box you're the communal one and then like all of a sudden my mom gets to
call like a letter in the
mail saying hey if sean's gonna go to school you can go to jail so now she has
a choice homeschool my
kid has she had a full-time job or go to jail damn so my little mogli ass i'm
like the wild one dude
they put my ass homeschooled i didn't go to school i didn't read i don't think
i learned how to read
until i came in adult you know i was homeschooled dude imagine i wasn't socialized
bro i was like a
dog that you have to go let people pet you know like nobody nobody and where
was this at where were you
guys in an empire in inland empire so i go back to school ritzy yeah so i know
now i'm like in seventh
grade and my mom's like we should probably put this kid back to school right
like worse thing she
could have did and did you ever were you and so you were you had some education
at that point i mean
but it's hard i've never like they try to hold me back in kindergarten like i
mean i was like zero dude
like thank god for computers man so anyways i go to seventh grade and i get
kicked out of school for
like a hate crime so what they do is did you really do it or not i mean i
probably just call somebody
a hit or drop the in bomb like it was probably you know it was like but it's
also a different time
bro it's different time like racism was way more common back in like you know
20 years ago yeah
so anyways i get put in this thing where they isolate you they put you in a
group that they let
you in school like two hours later and they let you out like two hours earlier
so they try to keep you
from the kids so i started ditching again i got homeschooled again to middle
school i went back into
high school uh ninth grade i got kicked out of school for a hate crime i think
i uh i don't know
i beat up or something i mean i beat up i i beat up a guy to miss you know i
don't hate gays yeah no
i don't hate anybody i don't think i uh i don't know there's a couple people
that i really don't
like but like i had a lot of like dude i had a lot of trauma you had a lot of
anger yeah a lot of
trauma growing up you know i had this piece of grandfather he was super racist
big white man
you know did he like you at all you think though no he did you know he did but
like you know you're
a kid with a piece of father and like you just gravitate towards anything
masculine and like
this is a big old white racist redneck and i'm angry so next thing i know dude
i'm like right you're
just saying racist that you heard at the house yeah exactly so i get kicked out
and then i started
training like nine like ninth grade i started training and then dude like i
realized i wasn't
a racist i was just angry i mean i'll never forget you always tell people the
first day i trained i got
the kicked out of me covered in blood bro like first moment in my life i ever
felt happiness first
moment in my life i ever felt happy and the kicked out of me just all the anger
the gone why do you think a
lot of it just comes out when you're because i had a moment where i was uh like
i was just training
jujitsu for a while and there would be times after the end of class where i
would just kind of start
tear like just so much emotion would come out yeah all the anger but i mean
again dude like
you know i mean why i got so mad drag it's like i went through like pretty
severe trauma yeah kid
like pretty up trauma like i could sit there and joke about it but i mean dude
i remember i i remember
i've told the story once dude like i was in probably third fourth grade and man
uh i always always sleep
in my mom's room because i thought my dad was gonna kill my mom so like i would
like sleep by the door
i'd sleep to make sure she was all right yeah i'd sleep under the bed you know
i'd sleep by the door
because i thought my dad was gonna kill my mom so like one day dude is so up
like it was just got a bad
fight like third fourth grade and i uh my dad's like that he's not sleeping he's
not sleeping here
tonight he's not like kick him out and so i like army crawling to the bed i'm
sleeping under the bed
right under the bed under the i'm like laying on the bed like just laying
underneath the bed like
as they're fighting because i think my dad's gonna kill my mom wow he was that
violent yeah he's just
coward you know so anyways like i mean we had like dogs you know or white trash
and the house was like
flea infested you have a dog under there with you no no dog was there with me
but i remember laying under
the bed and like fleas were just like jumping all over me you know and i'm like
i think there might
have been like a dildo next to me i get you not dude oh yeah this kind of like
orange looking carpet
so picture like me like third fourth grade yeah laying under a bed fleas
jumping all over me there's
a like dildo next to me yeah yeah it sounds like a japanese game like who puts
a dildo underneath
the bed but it's not sanitary like put it in your drawer yeah let's put it in a
drawer that has a
bunch of gum and coins in it yeah under the bed of the fleas yeah dude damn
that's scary so anyways my
dad gets on top of my mom she says like i remember he said like i'm gonna i'm
gonna kill you
i'm gonna kill you tonight it gets maybe just rough sex we don't know at this
moment right and
you're under the bed i'm under the bed so he starts strangling her and i get
out and i the only thing i
see his guitar i just crack him in the head call the cops and then he gives a i
run down the street
he calls cop gets arrested my dumb ass mom bailed him out of jail oh but it's
like i mean even that
like i mean that was like i wouldn't even say that's tip of the iceberg right i
remember like being a
little kid so i would always miss school because my dad would get home drunk
start drinking at like six
he would get home at like seven and and like just be up it's like three in the
morning just
like tell my mom tell him drinking tell my mom she's a whore he's gonna kill
her like
and i remember i used to like what a loser huh sorry to say that about your dad
he died of cancer but
anyways he's out of cancer now yeah yeah he died of cancer yeah you know
probably from the hate inside
of him yeah i hate to say that he was just drugs he lost lots of drugs uh pain
pills why i don't do
drugs so i remember like i used to sit there and just kind of like hug my mom's
leg in the in the
kitchen you know like we had this little nook and she would like go in the nook
and i would just sit
there like all night long i'm by like the feet of my mom and my dad like i'm
gonna kill you
and this and that and i'll never forget like he would talk about like like burn
her face with acid
then mind you i'm in elementary school i'm in elementary school right so like
so that's a lot
of responsibility then you feel probably just to like take care of your oh yeah
yeah no you'd always
tell her that like if you cheat on me and she probably was cheating on him if
you cheat on me
i'm gonna like cut you up and put you in a bottle of acid and bury you so now
you fast forward this
like i don't go to school i'm up till three in the morning and i i couldn't
stay awake in school
like so like i remember i was like in third grade no second grade and i kept
falling asleep at my desk
and my teacher took my desk away from me and she made me like like stand up and
so me i'm like
you being this little kid i just went and fell asleep on the ground and mind
you like the school
systems like oh sean like he's just a bad kid they don't realize i'm up till
three o'clock in the
morning like you know late i mean dude i remember it's hard to stay up late and
learn dude i remember
like laying in bed like i remember i stopped believing in god man like fucking
like i had
fucking um yeah it's crazy dude crazy man yeah it's okay man it's a lot of that
sad dude i used
to be scared at night like uh i used to stand up like i heard when i was a kid
that like if you peed
around your like animals could pee somewhere that other animals wouldn't come
you know i'm talking
about you know what i'm talking about uh yeah have you ever heard that
yeah i'm sorry bud so
i'm sorry buddy it's all good dude
we don't have to talk man i can just sit here with you for a minute
oh oh six seconds
i can just sit here we can just it's all good you six seconds just process it
i think
some hard things that people don't understand like trauma you know yeah
uh sometimes it just comes out oh no dude like i remember uh i have a hole in
my gum
yeah when i was a kid i used to scratch my gum and i have a hole in my gum
you know just from being nervous and stuff no just anxiety you know yeah yeah
even to this day
yeah i mean today dude like i'm a grown ass man i don't give a i mean you could
post this i don't
care oh dude i don't have any no it's all good dude i mean it's this is what it
is dude like it is
what it is like people understand like when i talk about like oh i kill a man
it's like you don't
understand you're like when you go through that level of trauma like you just
viewed it a little
differently you know so it's like i have a hole in my gum because i'd have so
much anxiety as a kid
and i would just scratch my gum until like i'm just blood you know and you know
you're like you're in
pre-alimentary school you don't know why you're doing it yeah yeah i remember
like like
you know like you don't even know what it is when you're a kid when you're
really talking about
like being a little kid like laying in bed like just like man i'm just i'm done
with this you know
like there can't be a god that makes me yeah it's up dude no it just makes me
sad that a kid has to
feel that way you know yeah so like any kid whenever drakus goes on there and
like he jokes about that
right like dude you have no idea yeah i mean and this is like as a comedian you
gotta joke about trauma
like people think like i joke like i joke about all this like you know as we're
laughing like
you gotta joke about like you gotta joke about if you don't like how do you
process that you know how
do you how do you process that kind of abuse i mean i'll never forget my
brother my brother we were
like upstairs once and he taped and he taped knives he was laying i mean we're