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Watch the stand-up comedy video '15 Minutes of Inspiration From Jameis Winston' from Theo Von Clips on Comedy Buff. Published 2024-04-05. Transcript available.

It's great to challenge yourself and to push new limits and go to different
heights, you know what I'm saying, and be tough on yourself.
But you also got to give yourself some grace, like that's where that balance
come in, you know what I'm saying?
Like you can't be your worst enemy and your biggest fan, you know what I'm
saying?
That's how I get.
You know what I'm saying?
I turn into my worst, yeah.
It's like I'm trying so much I end up being my worst enemy, bro.
But you being two different people.
You know, I feel like we talk to ourselves more than anybody else talk to us.
So you got to give yourself that grace, man.
You got to speak life into you more than anybody else is going to be speaking
life into you because I guarantee you, somebody else, they care about
themselves more than they care about you.
Yeah.
So if you down and you all the time, how is that going to make you feel?
Down, depressed, oh my goodness, now I got to do this, now I got to do that,
now I got to revert to this versus like, man, like, okay, I didn't fail.
Okay, I'm not the only person to fail, you know what I'm saying?
Okay, how I get up out of this, you know what I'm saying?
Who I need to talk to to get up out of this, you know what I'm saying?
My lawyer usually, but.
Hopefully we won't have to get to no legal applications.
That's what he, he trying to stay out of some legal applications, man.
You got to stay up out of them.
I'm just talking about self esteem, like what Cat Williams said, it's called
self esteem, you know what I'm saying?
Like, come on, you got to lift yourself up, man.
You got to give yourself life.
That's a good point, huh?
Yeah, I think I, I wonder, yeah, sometimes it's hard for me to see what the
conversation I'm having with myself is.
Does that make any sense?
Yeah, that makes a lot of sense because we, like, I'll say it like this.
Why do we give other people better advice than we give ourselves?
I know.
It's like we, we counsel ourself out because we don't listen to ourselves.
So when we not listen to ourselves, how do we expect to hear ourselves when we
in this, in this funk?
Or we in this, like, this, this, this, this mode where we like, we about to
turn up.
We about to go, go into somebody's head.
We mad, you know what I'm saying?
We're not hearing ourselves.
We just reacting in a default.
We're not being on purpose.
We're not being intentional.
You know what I'm saying?
We just, like a little kid, we having an anxiety attack or we spazzing out.
You know, all of us have those moments.
But the ones that are able to, you know, look at those moments, reflect on
those moments and build off those moments and not let those moments destroy
them.
Like, they're the ones that end up being successful.
It's interesting, huh?
So much of that war is really, it's a peace talk, but you have to bring
yourself to the table.
That's the tough, I just have, sometimes I have tough times in that moment of,
like, this is how I feel right now.
And instead of bringing myself to the table, I just walk out and start, you
know, executing a plan.
You know what I'm saying?
And it's not really, I haven't really brought myself into a place of, like,
okay, how do I do this best for me and for others and for, you know.
Yeah.
Yeah, sometimes that's a thing that I struggle with a lot sometimes.
A comfort really can be your coffin.
You know, I know that.
Mm-hmm.
It can get real easy.
Yeah, no doubt.
Challenging yourself, accepting challenges.
But then there is that fear that comes with it.
And it's like, how do I manage the fear while I'm doing this new thing, while I'm
going this way, right?
Yeah.
But Joe, he was telling me something, because I'm talking about, like,
communicating with people.
And he was like, man, when you have that fear, it's better to do than be scared.
Because you're scared, you're just sitting there.
Yeah, you're just sitting there.
You're just thinking.
And, like, he told me, I was like, I was like, dang, Joe, like, what you doing?
Give me advice, fuck, man.
Like, just do.
And once you start doing, like, eventually that fear starts being in that rearview
mirror, and you just leave it.
You leave it there.
Yeah, because a lot of times, man, there will be opportunities, and I get so
fearful, I stand there like this, like Barry Sanders.
And then I don't pick nothing.
He went standing.
He was coming and moving and getting north and south.
But I was just a side to side.
You know, I just get like this.
And then the opportunities will disappear because I didn't make a choice.
Yeah.
That happens.
That's happened to me before in life, you know, where it's like, I just, yeah,
instead of just going.
Because if you go, you might realize one is wrong, and you could get both of
them.
Right.
And see and find the right one.
You know what I'm saying?
Sometimes we need that shift, that paradigm shift to, like, challenge us, to
put us in a new environment, you know.
Yeah, I feel that a lot, man.
I feel that even as, like, there are moments in my own life and career where
things have been going well.
And then there's moments where things feel like they haven't, my perception of
things is that they haven't been going well.
And, man, sometimes I get scared of how I behave when things aren't going well.
Yeah.
Or the feelings that come up, the fears that, like, take over how I operate or,
yeah, I'll get into, like, not as much a desperation mode because I've had some
experience with some of it now.
But I do get into, yeah, the first thing to leave is my faith or confidence
that things are going to be okay a lot of times.
Yeah.
You know, because it feels scary.
Well, I think, like, the fear part is that's what grabs you, you know, that's
what puts you in that fight or flight stage.
But when you said faith, like, faith is the first thing that you should hold on
to because faith is really the things that you believe in that you have not
seen.
Like, typically, when you experience pain, it's something that you have
experienced.
You've seen it.
It's happened to you.
And I think that's why I'm always in this position because my faith allows me
to hope for more, to want more, right, and, like, and to dig in even deeper.
You know, I feel like when you are, like, when you think of a seed, right, if I
look at a seed, like, let's do an acorn.
Mm-hmm.
Like, you look at an acorn.
It's a seed.
It's a seed.
It's a good seed, too.
An acorn is turning to oak trees.
You know what I'm saying?
Did you know that?
That's a good point.
Right.
So that seed, but for that seed to grow into what it needs to become, it has to,
it has one, it has to break.
Like, that seed has to be broken, right, and then it has to get rooted.
So before it sprouts up, it has to go down into the earth and establish a
foundation.
So when you think about challenges, right, it's telling you, like, it's the
Lord telling you, like, hey, man, like, we're going to have to have a shift.
You got to get rooted in the real foundation, which is me, right, which is the
Lord, which is Jesus.
Oh, yeah.
Right.
That's your foundation.
Yeah.
And before you can grow up, right, you're going to have some little seedlings.
Like, you're going to have a little cracks in here.
You might have a little bird trying to come and snatch you out.
Yeah.
But through that trial, right, you're going to be able to turn to this
beautiful oak tree, and you're going to be able to be fruitful and give to
others through your testimony, through your experiences.
And when you view it from that perspective, now that fear isn't as frightening.
Yeah.
You know what I'm saying?
Yeah, no, I feel that.
And when we talk about, like, as kids, the reason we're failures as kids is
because we know we're going to get another opportunity.
We know, okay, if we get scrubbed on the football field, okay, we got tomorrow.
Right.
You know what I'm saying?
But as adults, those little pains that we get, you know, those little failures,
they eat at us, and we start questioning ourselves, like, wow, like, are they
better than me?
Or, like, am I missing something that I used to have?
But as a kid, just like, man, I'm proud of the moment.
Like, we out here again, y'all.
Like, we live and local.
You know what I'm saying?
But as adults, it's those conditions, man.
Yeah, the conditions change because when you're a child, you really have so
much blind faith, don't you?
Even if you don't, even if as a kid, you don't perceive it as faith in a higher
power, you just feel it as faith that you're going to have another opportunity
that you've got the next day.
Wow, it's really crazy how much that changes over time.
Because, yeah, it's the conditions that change.
Perspective is, so much of life I learn is about perspective, man.
If you can show up really with a gratitude and really with a perspective that
there's possibility at any moment, that changes everything.
You become a beacon.
You become a light bug for other people at that point.
Well, what we call to be, you know, the light of the earth, you know.
So, I think when you're in that role, it's not your job to see, like, are they
doing what I'm doing?
Or am I doing what they're doing?
It's your job to see, man, how can I perfect what I'm doing to encourage
somebody else to perfect what they're doing so they can be their best self?
Wow.
You know, like, and I think that we get so much, like, we're all competing,
right?
We're all chasing this rat race.
We're all chasing something that's greater than us, right?
But a lot of times we're so busy looking at other people running their race
instead of focusing on the race that you got to run.
Yeah.
And I think one thing that I've learned through experience, because experience,
like, experience through, like, certain conditions, circumstances, and facts,
like, that's what creates perspective.
You know, that's what gives people that wisdom, you know, because they went
through something, you know.
Oh, yeah.
And that's why, you know, I always, I'm always hanging around, you know, like,
you saw, you saw, I call my granddad.
I'm always hanging around people that are, that are wise, that are older,
because their experiences are, it's freaking gold, bro.
Oh, yeah.
Like, they've been through so much stuff, and they've overcome so many
different things.
Oh, yeah.
Bro, the, the, the, the slowest way to learn is through your experience.
So why not pick somebody else's brain?
Why not learn or hang around somebody that's an old, old head?
Get a senior citizen, yeah.
You know what I'm saying?
Bring a couple hours with you.
Yeah.
Senior citizen, yeah, that's person.
You know what I'm saying?
Yeah, yeah, yeah.
I use that all the time.
Childhood.
When you get out of that kid's stage, and you an adult, ain't nobody looking at
you like, oh, he must have had a dad, a father in his life.
Right.
You know what I'm saying?
They looking at you like, on to the next one.
I'm going to grow up.
For real.
That's what it is.
Yeah, that's a great point, man.
I think there's aspects of my life where I've, like, I think I was, like, a
late bloomer, too, like, realizing a lot of stuff and getting past, like, a lot
of childhood stuff.
But I certainly feel like I'm at a point now where I want to grow up more in
some areas, you know?
And I pray, that's what I pray about each day.
I pray that God makes me more willing to advance in some of these places and to
let go of some resentments and help, like, soften some of the discomfort that I
have in places.
Yeah.
Because sometimes there's things that are still hooking you to your past, you
know?
Right.
And it's, like, sometimes it's hard to get, you know, like, when you have, like,
you had a boat dock and you got the things tied up.
Mm-hmm.
And some drunk guy tied the one and he tied a damn Christmas bow on it or
something you can't get.
Sometimes it's, like, I got those.
I really believe we have certain curses that are on us, that were put on us
through our family, through generations, you know, of them, you know, living a
life.
But I also believe in that bondage, that true peace and, you know, again, let's
talk about our faith.
Let's talk about accepting our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ, man, and being
separated from all that bondage and realizing, like, it is my life.
I am free from everything that I feel like is holding me back to go do what I
need to do for this world, for me.
Yeah.
And I know it's tough, like.
No, no, I know you're not saying it's possible for everybody easily, but it's
something we have to hear.
And that's why I'm listening to you saying I'm happy to hear it today.
It's a message that I need to be reminded of.
And I think that's why you're even saying it right now.
And we're in the same space because, yeah, I need to be reminded of that.
That how long do I want to sit and look at the chains instead of look out the
window, you know, like how, you know, like at a certain point, even my eyes are
tired of looking at those chains.
And if you only look at yourself as a victim, then it's impossible to really
advance yourself for anybody.
Like if I only look at the parts of me that, like if I only see myself as a
victim, right, and that's all I see myself as, it's going to be really hard for
me to have new opportunity because I don't have any perspective.
I won't even see opportunity if it shows up.
Man, I learned this, this, uh, like I was talking to one of my mentors and he
shared this with me and, uh, it kind of changed my perspective.
He was like, you are not what you think you are, but what you think you are.
It's just a perspective.
Like we all think like, Oh, I'm, I'm this type of person, but we're not, we're
not thinking about the stuff that we put into our mind on a daily basis.
Like what we think and what we set our attention to is really what we are.
Not, not what we may think how people view us or how we may even view ourself.
But what we thinking, like, right, like poor, like being poor, like that's a
mentality being rich.
That's a mentality.
Like these people just got like meat meal set, like it's levels to it.
Like when you are, have a poor mindset, like, man, that's, that's, that's
struggle.
That, that, that, that, that, that's hurt.
That's pain.
But man, I didn't seen people like with no shoes, toes coming out, they shoes
that are happier than ever.
Yeah.
I didn't seen people with no shoes at the beach.
Yeah.
No, bro.
I didn't see people with no shoes, man.
I'm talking about little kids.
Oh, that's what you're saying.
No, no shoes, man.
Enjoy.
Enjoy.
Yeah.
Because what they're thinking.
Right.
Yeah.
Yeah.
I remember I've gone to some different places, like India, different places.
You see these kids show up and they're just living, man.
You're like, Oh, I wish I could be as happy as this kid.
Yes, man.
I like that, man.
You just kind of make your choices and that's it for you.
You know, it seemed like your self-confidence is that a unique, is it, is
really unique compared to other people, man.
Yeah.
Were you always like that?
Do you feel like, or was that something that was kind of built?
Do you think it was just a gift that you had?
I feel like it's, it's, it's still growing.
I've always been confident in myself, but more importantly in my faith, you
know what I'm saying?
Like I was rooted in the church, like old Southern Baptist.
From when you were little, from when I was little, like, but when I actually
started to know God and I started to understand like that I'm fighting from
victory, not for victory.
Like, then I, I just, I took a different approach.
I took a different approach to the way that I live.
I see.
And I think it's like the accumulation of really the, who you surround yourself
with.
Like seeing other people that's like walking, like firm, that are strong
brothers, that ain't like lukewarm.
Like that gives you that confidence.
Like that gives you that affirmation to be like, okay, like, man, I need to,
like, what am I doing?
Like you said, you question yourself.
It's been so, a lot of times where I've questioned myself.
It's been so, a lot of times in the NFL where I just like, man, like, like, who
am I?
Like, what I got going on?
You know what I'm saying?
But at the end of the day, I had to dig deep and just be like, okay, like, this
is who I am.
Right.
You know what I'm saying?
Get back to your, to your foundation.
What is my foundation?
If I don't, if I don't believe in this foundation that I built, then why did I
even build it then?
You have to, yeah.
I'm not here for no reason.
Right.
I'm here for a purpose.
My own unique purpose.
All right.
So I got to live it.
Hey, man, I might try out for somebody.
You can do it, bro.
Yeah.
The Colts might need someone.
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15 Minutes of Inspiration From Jameis Winston

It's great to challenge yourself and to push new limits and go to different
heights, you know what I'm saying, and be tough on yourself.
But you also got to give yourself some grace, like that's where that balance
come in, you know what I'm saying?
Like you can't be your worst enemy and your biggest fan, you know what I'm
saying?
That's how I get.
You know what I'm saying?
I turn into my worst, yeah.
It's like I'm trying so much I end up being my worst enemy, bro.
But you being two different people.
You know, I feel like we talk to ourselves more than anybody else talk to us.
So you got to give yourself that grace, man.
You got to speak life into you more than anybody else is going to be speaking
life into you because I guarantee you, somebody else, they care about
themselves more than they care about you.
Yeah.
So if you down and you all the time, how is that going to make you feel?
Down, depressed, oh my goodness, now I got to do this, now I got to do that,
now I got to revert to this versus like, man, like, okay, I didn't fail.
Okay, I'm not the only person to fail, you know what I'm saying?
Okay, how I get up out of this, you know what I'm saying?
Who I need to talk to to get up out of this, you know what I'm saying?
My lawyer usually, but.
Hopefully we won't have to get to no legal applications.
That's what he, he trying to stay out of some legal applications, man.
You got to stay up out of them.
I'm just talking about self esteem, like what Cat Williams said, it's called
self esteem, you know what I'm saying?
Like, come on, you got to lift yourself up, man.
You got to give yourself life.
That's a good point, huh?
Yeah, I think I, I wonder, yeah, sometimes it's hard for me to see what the
conversation I'm having with myself is.
Does that make any sense?
Yeah, that makes a lot of sense because we, like, I'll say it like this.
Why do we give other people better advice than we give ourselves?
I know.
It's like we, we counsel ourself out because we don't listen to ourselves.
So when we not listen to ourselves, how do we expect to hear ourselves when we
in this, in this funk?
Or we in this, like, this, this, this, this mode where we like, we about to
turn up.
We about to go, go into somebody's head.
We mad, you know what I'm saying?
We're not hearing ourselves.
We just reacting in a default.
We're not being on purpose.
We're not being intentional.
You know what I'm saying?
We just, like a little kid, we having an anxiety attack or we spazzing out.
You know, all of us have those moments.
But the ones that are able to, you know, look at those moments, reflect on
those moments and build off those moments and not let those moments destroy
them.
Like, they're the ones that end up being successful.
It's interesting, huh?
So much of that war is really, it's a peace talk, but you have to bring
yourself to the table.
That's the tough, I just have, sometimes I have tough times in that moment of,
like, this is how I feel right now.
And instead of bringing myself to the table, I just walk out and start, you
know, executing a plan.
You know what I'm saying?
And it's not really, I haven't really brought myself into a place of, like,
okay, how do I do this best for me and for others and for, you know.
Yeah.
Yeah, sometimes that's a thing that I struggle with a lot sometimes.
A comfort really can be your coffin.
You know, I know that.
Mm-hmm.
It can get real easy.
Yeah, no doubt.
Challenging yourself, accepting challenges.
But then there is that fear that comes with it.
And it's like, how do I manage the fear while I'm doing this new thing, while I'm
going this way, right?
Yeah.
But Joe, he was telling me something, because I'm talking about, like,
communicating with people.
And he was like, man, when you have that fear, it's better to do than be scared.
Because you're scared, you're just sitting there.
Yeah, you're just sitting there.
You're just thinking.
And, like, he told me, I was like, I was like, dang, Joe, like, what you doing?
Give me advice, fuck, man.
Like, just do.
And once you start doing, like, eventually that fear starts being in that rearview
mirror, and you just leave it.
You leave it there.
Yeah, because a lot of times, man, there will be opportunities, and I get so
fearful, I stand there like this, like Barry Sanders.
And then I don't pick nothing.
He went standing.
He was coming and moving and getting north and south.
But I was just a side to side.
You know, I just get like this.
And then the opportunities will disappear because I didn't make a choice.
Yeah.
That happens.
That's happened to me before in life, you know, where it's like, I just, yeah,
instead of just going.
Because if you go, you might realize one is wrong, and you could get both of
them.
Right.
And see and find the right one.
You know what I'm saying?
Sometimes we need that shift, that paradigm shift to, like, challenge us, to
put us in a new environment, you know.
Yeah, I feel that a lot, man.
I feel that even as, like, there are moments in my own life and career where
things have been going well.
And then there's moments where things feel like they haven't, my perception of
things is that they haven't been going well.
And, man, sometimes I get scared of how I behave when things aren't going well.
Yeah.
Or the feelings that come up, the fears that, like, take over how I operate or,
yeah, I'll get into, like, not as much a desperation mode because I've had some
experience with some of it now.
But I do get into, yeah, the first thing to leave is my faith or confidence
that things are going to be okay a lot of times.
Yeah.
You know, because it feels scary.
Well, I think, like, the fear part is that's what grabs you, you know, that's
what puts you in that fight or flight stage.
But when you said faith, like, faith is the first thing that you should hold on
to because faith is really the things that you believe in that you have not
seen.
Like, typically, when you experience pain, it's something that you have
experienced.
You've seen it.
It's happened to you.
And I think that's why I'm always in this position because my faith allows me
to hope for more, to want more, right, and, like, and to dig in even deeper.
You know, I feel like when you are, like, when you think of a seed, right, if I
look at a seed, like, let's do an acorn.
Mm-hmm.
Like, you look at an acorn.
It's a seed.
It's a seed.
It's a good seed, too.
An acorn is turning to oak trees.
You know what I'm saying?
Did you know that?
That's a good point.
Right.
So that seed, but for that seed to grow into what it needs to become, it has to,
it has one, it has to break.
Like, that seed has to be broken, right, and then it has to get rooted.
So before it sprouts up, it has to go down into the earth and establish a
foundation.
So when you think about challenges, right, it's telling you, like, it's the
Lord telling you, like, hey, man, like, we're going to have to have a shift.
You got to get rooted in the real foundation, which is me, right, which is the
Lord, which is Jesus.
Oh, yeah.
Right.
That's your foundation.
Yeah.
And before you can grow up, right, you're going to have some little seedlings.
Like, you're going to have a little cracks in here.
You might have a little bird trying to come and snatch you out.
Yeah.
But through that trial, right, you're going to be able to turn to this
beautiful oak tree, and you're going to be able to be fruitful and give to
others through your testimony, through your experiences.
And when you view it from that perspective, now that fear isn't as frightening.
Yeah.
You know what I'm saying?
Yeah, no, I feel that.
And when we talk about, like, as kids, the reason we're failures as kids is
because we know we're going to get another opportunity.
We know, okay, if we get scrubbed on the football field, okay, we got tomorrow.
Right.
You know what I'm saying?
But as adults, those little pains that we get, you know, those little failures,
they eat at us, and we start questioning ourselves, like, wow, like, are they
better than me?
Or, like, am I missing something that I used to have?
But as a kid, just like, man, I'm proud of the moment.
Like, we out here again, y'all.
Like, we live and local.
You know what I'm saying?
But as adults, it's those conditions, man.
Yeah, the conditions change because when you're a child, you really have so
much blind faith, don't you?
Even if you don't, even if as a kid, you don't perceive it as faith in a higher
power, you just feel it as faith that you're going to have another opportunity
that you've got the next day.
Wow, it's really crazy how much that changes over time.
Because, yeah, it's the conditions that change.
Perspective is, so much of life I learn is about perspective, man.
If you can show up really with a gratitude and really with a perspective that
there's possibility at any moment, that changes everything.
You become a beacon.
You become a light bug for other people at that point.
Well, what we call to be, you know, the light of the earth, you know.
So, I think when you're in that role, it's not your job to see, like, are they
doing what I'm doing?
Or am I doing what they're doing?
It's your job to see, man, how can I perfect what I'm doing to encourage
somebody else to perfect what they're doing so they can be their best self?
Wow.
You know, like, and I think that we get so much, like, we're all competing,
right?
We're all chasing this rat race.
We're all chasing something that's greater than us, right?
But a lot of times we're so busy looking at other people running their race
instead of focusing on the race that you got to run.
Yeah.
And I think one thing that I've learned through experience, because experience,
like, experience through, like, certain conditions, circumstances, and facts,
like, that's what creates perspective.
You know, that's what gives people that wisdom, you know, because they went
through something, you know.
Oh, yeah.
And that's why, you know, I always, I'm always hanging around, you know, like,
you saw, you saw, I call my granddad.
I'm always hanging around people that are, that are wise, that are older,
because their experiences are, it's freaking gold, bro.
Oh, yeah.
Like, they've been through so much stuff, and they've overcome so many
different things.
Oh, yeah.
Bro, the, the, the, the slowest way to learn is through your experience.
So why not pick somebody else's brain?
Why not learn or hang around somebody that's an old, old head?
Get a senior citizen, yeah.
You know what I'm saying?
Bring a couple hours with you.
Yeah.
Senior citizen, yeah, that's person.
You know what I'm saying?
Yeah, yeah, yeah.
I use that all the time.
Childhood.
When you get out of that kid's stage, and you an adult, ain't nobody looking at
you like, oh, he must have had a dad, a father in his life.
Right.
You know what I'm saying?
They looking at you like, on to the next one.
I'm going to grow up.
For real.
That's what it is.
Yeah, that's a great point, man.
I think there's aspects of my life where I've, like, I think I was, like, a
late bloomer, too, like, realizing a lot of stuff and getting past, like, a lot
of childhood stuff.
But I certainly feel like I'm at a point now where I want to grow up more in
some areas, you know?
And I pray, that's what I pray about each day.
I pray that God makes me more willing to advance in some of these places and to
let go of some resentments and help, like, soften some of the discomfort that I
have in places.
Yeah.
Because sometimes there's things that are still hooking you to your past, you
know?
Right.
And it's, like, sometimes it's hard to get, you know, like, when you have, like,
you had a boat dock and you got the things tied up.
Mm-hmm.
And some drunk guy tied the one and he tied a damn Christmas bow on it or
something you can't get.
Sometimes it's, like, I got those.
I really believe we have certain curses that are on us, that were put on us
through our family, through generations, you know, of them, you know, living a
life.