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Watch the stand-up comedy video 'Where Sean Strickland's Rage Comes From' from Theo Von Clips on Comedy Buff. Published 2024-05-31. Transcript available.

damn it reminds me of like when people like my sister they have like pit bulls
and you see
people 100 yeah i hate to say that no it's not fair no it's like no this is
what it is dude it's
like a dog bro it's like well it's an animal i wouldn't say a dog yeah but it's
like but it's
like something that can't always probably trust its own i don't know the
problem is it feels good
it's not like it's like i don't know everyone's like oh you get blacked out
angry like i'm not
angry like i'm like i'm a i'm almost like this in euphoricness like it's a
bliss it's like uh
it's like yeah just it's it's peaceful you know yeah man but i'm better dude
like you know i'm
mma helps like i always tell guys like i used to think guys with ptsd were the
biggest pussies
you know like i'm like ptsd like what what you can't leave your house yeah you
can't have
relationships oh you have guys claiming ptsd from like getting because there's
new speed bumps in
their neighborhood but you know what i would say to that though it's like and i
have so much more
sympathy for like guys who suffer from that because you gotta stand i was born
in it like like i was
born in the life i was born like i mean i remember i stopped believing in god
when i was in elementary
school i was laying in bed crying thinking about myself yeah like there can't
be a god here how's
there a god like like why would i be in this situation this guy ain't no god
which heartbreaking to
think that a child would have to have those thoughts and thought me yeah my
earliest memories dude like
i don't have like when i think back and like when i think of a kid i cannot
cannot recall one good
memory not one good memory as a kid so you cannot pay me to relive my life
cannot pay me now it's fine
yeah but when i said like with ptsd i said like look at like soldiers coming
home like you guys are
yeah like what the is wrong with you and then you realize like i grew up in the
life i grew up in it
i learned how to cope and how to deal i learned that don't go out in public
hide away from people like
like don't go do these things but i couldn't picture being like a 20
like i couldn't picture being 24 years old and being a normal guy like i i like
life i like chicks
i like going to party like drinking yeah and all of a sudden like the curtain
drops and you're
like who the am i i can't i'm i'm volatile i can't go out like it's rough man
fuck that's why
training you i always tell people like that saved your life oh not in my life
and this is what people
like i wouldn't be a mess probably saved a lot of about 20 just random
strangers on the street too i mean i used to walk i
remember a kid dude i used to walk in bad neighborhoods with a knife just like
just waiting
like people always like i want to be a serial killer like i'm not a i'm not a
high functioning psychopath
like that's not what i'd be so organized i think to do that so what would have
happened is i would have
been another statistic i would have been walking down the street some guy would
have uh some guy would
i would have killed him i would have been in jail and i've been then i would
probably been a white
supremacist and that's my life you know i'll never forget i was driving i got
arrested when i was younger
obviously who the thought right yeah i knew two two yeah two gbi two family gbis
and
and i was driving back from court and i was on a motorcycle and this guy like
this guy i'm just i want to hurt somebody i'm angry i'm pissed off i'm looking
at hard prison
time i'm just angry he's on a motorcycle and i i guess i kind of i cut him off
like i mean i
manipulated the situation i manipulated the situation because i wanted to hurt
somebody
and he pulls over and i get off my bike and i'm literally like in this moment
like
i'm gonna kill this man and the next moment i get off on my bike he pulls out a
badge and like
he's a cop and i'm like oh and i remember the guy like the guy was generally
concerned like hey
man like are you okay like the wrong with you know because he knew like he knew
yeah that's crazy
there was a point in my life too where like i didn't must have been grateful
then that he did
that almost in a way oh yeah i mean if he didn't like who knows what happened i
remember there's one
point in my life you were like i was just going through it i was in the ufc too
at the time and i
was just like i lived in temecula and there was like a big like motorcycle gang
population like i don't
vagos or some and i remember like i just was like yeah i'd lay in bed and like
i was hurting dude like
not like i don't know if it's depressed but it's like well your body's not
supposed to as a key not
supposed to have that much pain inside it so no this is like my 20s now i
remember 20s and like
i just like it gets you build up so much we're like i need i i have to do
something like i need
to hurt somebody to make this go away and i'll never forget it didn't happen
but there was like
i was riding there's a vago and i'm like this is the one this is what's a vago
it's like a gangbanger
like a mortal oh yeah i was like i was like this is like a car wash i was like
this is the like i was like
this is my victim is like this is my crime that like if i can't get away with
it he's a gangbanger
he'll accept it like i could kill this man somewhere if there's not a camera
and there's a chance that we don't get away and i remember like i'll never
forget i went in front of
him and that day and i like boom cut him off and flipped him off fuck you and
then i was like waiting
for him to like follow me somewhere i even had it planned out i was like i'm
gonna ufc i was gonna take
him to this you're already in the ufc yeah i was in temecula i was gonna take
him to like a dirt road
and just kill him beat him even the aaron you like aaron hernandez i just built
beat him to death
and then you know it's exciting it's scary at the same time you're thinking
about doing it and then he
just like i guess he just didn't want it he just drove away flipped me off
drove away but all it took
like all it took was all it would have taken was one other little came to be
like all right you i'm
gonna follow you next thing you know dude i'm fucking i'm gonna be in prison
handcuffed right
because you know you're so angry you don't think about consequences you just
think about like i'm
hurting so much like there's so much pressure in me like i gotta get this girl
i gotta make it go away
yeah it just man it's fucking crazy that uh it just it's so unfair that
how much pressure like sometimes people have to have in them for they didn't
even do yeah you know
well it's because your brain you know it's like your brain tells you that this
cave is bad don't
go there it's like an evolutionary like yeah like so and one of the hardest
things for me it's like
i was brought up in a world that doesn't exist so like i was brought up in this
like primitive
primal up world where like my brain was telling me that you are in a very bad
place and the world's bad
right so it my brain evolved to be violent it evolved to be violent hypersexual
aggressive
and then as a man now i'm in 2023 how do i function yeah like i got to go
through i got to go through
the world as in like i this is not what my brain was evolved for wow so i was
like that's what
training helps almost like a time traveler it must feel like in a way well
because i i involved like
because like my brain evolved in a very primitive way like it evolved in like
oh yeah like you got to
kill this man you got to that girl like there was a communal porn box like
that's not fair yeah but it is what it is it is what it is right right you can't
always keep looking
back at it but you just move on and right now i'm happy bro i mean you're happy
your life's good you
mean you went through some we've all been through some like if you look at the
statistics
of child abuse we've all been through some some people more than others yeah my
life was
disneyland some people i know but i mean i'm just working like as like
as i get older i just stay away from people do you think it's gotten better or
worse over time
oh it definitely better like my mental state of mind like dude having a
girlfriend helps
yeah i know you said that you really and uh slap you're like yeah i really like
having this
so it's like dude whenever she's gone like and mind you i like i could go
anybody i want to fight
don't yeah but like whenever she's gone dude like i would just be in my house
and i started looking
at all the things i own like i have a couch a tv like what i have this i don't
want this
shit and you start like and you start just getting like crazy oh yeah i don't
do i don't do well
alone yeah and that's what that's one of those things too where like a lot of
people with trauma
you self-isolate yourself because it feels good right you want to be alone and
you want to keep
yourself away from people a lot of times like i want if i'm angry or whatever's
going on with me
the last thing i want to do sometimes is put it around anybody else like yeah
exactly you want to
like you want to be most like like all these mass shooters all these killers
like you
want to be alone like you want to be quiet you don't people make you feel outcasted
they don't
make you feel right and so what you do is you listen to those thoughts and you
stay alone
and then you just and in the moment you go out say i'll be at low i'll be alone
i'll go get food
like no sean get out of the house go get food like right do something because
it helps but but it
doesn't help but it doesn't help because now it's you because you have so much
that
risk potential so now i'm in and out and i'm looking at all these people and i'm
just like
anger is just building inside me i'm getting angrier oh so my my girl my girls
helped me a lot function
yeah she's helped me a lot dude do you have like a some fun memories from your
kid like was there
something fun that you guys used to go do like a younger trick-or-treating or
something my brother
i mean my brother was like my dad was he really like but my brother was brutal
to me
like you know you my brother's three years older than me and you're having a he
was like my dad you're
having a him raise me as a kid and all he knows is that he's seen or learned oh
yeah so my mommy
he'd me up beat the out of me like i get i remember i'd get every day my mom
would come back from work
i'd be up with bruises i bet he feels horrible about it uh i mean it's kind of
hard dude because
it's like you're a kid raising a kid right you know right it's almost not even
fair for him to feel
horrible about it yeah you know so it's like i mean i remember we had a prison
whip bro my dad had a
prison whip and my brother would be like if you don't clean the house i'm gonna
whack you this
thing you may hit with a prison whip dude it takes skin off the bone i mean it
takes skin off but
i wouldn't like it it's not good dude it's a big metal plastic whip so you take
my dad then you take
my brother just you know like yeah it adds up dude and it's scary to think man
there's some so many people
go through so much like plastic bro the prison whip is plastic you got to go uh
type in prison that's an
expensive modern prison whip modern prison whip yeah there's a looking at like
the 1500s and
over here nah it's a hard plastic rod bro yeah it's kind of like that but like
that's new age
that's some prison that's a new age but yeah man it's been a good podcast seal
good dude well
i'm trying to think if there's anything else that we can talk about that makes
me
allow a little bit less depressed well i just think no i think just like when
you talk about that kind of
stuff like i do realize like when i'm able to share things like because some
people that's the one of
the gifts that some people have right and i believe this is like you know
people that went through
something that was super really tough right and they're able to get through it
and then if they
are able to articulate what it was like and how it affected them if they were
to do all that and get
through it and still have some way to articulate it well that's where it's able
to be beneficial
the difficult thing with me it's like with fighting like i was able to get
pussy i was able to like be
with women and have that but most big women too big women big women big women
but but guys the problem
is like a lot of guys like me that's not necessarily the case they don't train
they don't fight and they
just self-isolate you just gotta like yeah man it's hard just what i would tell
anybody just don't
self-isolate even though it feels good and you want to you know feels good like
i just don't do it
yeah i'll do it i yeah yeah because i i'll like go against that's why i go to
like recovery meetings
and stuff because it makes me go to a meeting i have to be in a room where
people like like one
thing i like about recovery meetings is like you're able to share how you feel
in there about
shit and nobody can cross talk so you would do recovery meetings yeah does it
help oh it helps a
lot yeah it helps a lot bro it's a lot of people talking about all this kind of
shit well addiction
addiction's real like um yeah addiction i mean like man i mean we all got addictions
you know mine a lot was women you know prior to my girl like i had a bad like
sex addiction not sex
addiction but it's like just like all guys like you know you're a single guy
the only thing that
makes you feel good is chasing a woman oh yeah you know oh when i was young
dude like once i learned
about jerking off and everything oh that's bad all down here all bad oh if i
had a thought an idea
anything i would just jerk off funny i actually get a lot of good idea i'd go
jerk off like no it's
funny i'll watch porn and the moment i come dude i get kind of pissed off yeah
but like it's kind of
weird like so my dad right my dad hypersexual dildos communal porn box they're
like i feel a lot of shame
from sex yeah like you know like i like i'll watch porn like oh jerk i don't
really watch porn much
anymore the second i jerk off i feel so ashamed i feel so ashamed but i grew up
with my dad i'll yell
at my dick yeah you're just mad you went for that you went for that temporary
uh fiction yeah yeah but
you know what it's the only way i knew to make myself feel good was that was
the only good feeling
i had in my whole life was just like this i was like it's a it's a it's a
chemical yeah you just you're
chasing it but you know like i mean dude i'm like i'll get on a motorcycle and
i mean last night going
to the event dude my manager is with me and i'm driving like 120 through red
lights on the back
nah he has another bike but he like he didn't keep up right and i even told him
i was like you don't
don't keep up with me like just stay at home like you just i'll meet you at the
event we're going to
the same place i'm going like 120 through red lights and it's just like that
even though like yeah you
can't but it just feels good it makes sure good that like temporary high of
feeling good you know
yeah yeah exactly it feels good yeah but you know i mean i guess we could wrap
this up it's getting late
i would it's getting late but i would tell i would just tell you guys that
train you know don't isolate
man good luck i wish you guys the best of luck
Thank you.

Where Sean Strickland's Rage Comes From

damn it reminds me of like when people like my sister they have like pit bulls
and you see
people 100 yeah i hate to say that no it's not fair no it's like no this is
what it is dude it's
like a dog bro it's like well it's an animal i wouldn't say a dog yeah but it's
like but it's
like something that can't always probably trust its own i don't know the
problem is it feels good
it's not like it's like i don't know everyone's like oh you get blacked out
angry like i'm not
angry like i'm like i'm a i'm almost like this in euphoricness like it's a
bliss it's like uh
it's like yeah just it's it's peaceful you know yeah man but i'm better dude
like you know i'm
mma helps like i always tell guys like i used to think guys with ptsd were the
biggest pussies
you know like i'm like ptsd like what what you can't leave your house yeah you
can't have
relationships oh you have guys claiming ptsd from like getting because there's
new speed bumps in
their neighborhood but you know what i would say to that though it's like and i
have so much more
sympathy for like guys who suffer from that because you gotta stand i was born
in it like like i was
born in the life i was born like i mean i remember i stopped believing in god
when i was in elementary
school i was laying in bed crying thinking about myself yeah like there can't
be a god here how's
there a god like like why would i be in this situation this guy ain't no god
which heartbreaking to
think that a child would have to have those thoughts and thought me yeah my
earliest memories dude like
i don't have like when i think back and like when i think of a kid i cannot
cannot recall one good
memory not one good memory as a kid so you cannot pay me to relive my life
cannot pay me now it's fine
yeah but when i said like with ptsd i said like look at like soldiers coming
home like you guys are
yeah like what the is wrong with you and then you realize like i grew up in the
life i grew up in it
i learned how to cope and how to deal i learned that don't go out in public
hide away from people like
like don't go do these things but i couldn't picture being like a 20
like i couldn't picture being 24 years old and being a normal guy like i i like
life i like chicks
i like going to party like drinking yeah and all of a sudden like the curtain
drops and you're
like who the am i i can't i'm i'm volatile i can't go out like it's rough man
fuck that's why
training you i always tell people like that saved your life oh not in my life
and this is what people
like i wouldn't be a mess probably saved a lot of about 20 just random
strangers on the street too i mean i used to walk i
remember a kid dude i used to walk in bad neighborhoods with a knife just like
just waiting
like people always like i want to be a serial killer like i'm not a i'm not a
high functioning psychopath
like that's not what i'd be so organized i think to do that so what would have
happened is i would have
been another statistic i would have been walking down the street some guy would
have uh some guy would
i would have killed him i would have been in jail and i've been then i would
probably been a white
supremacist and that's my life you know i'll never forget i was driving i got
arrested when i was younger
obviously who the thought right yeah i knew two two yeah two gbi two family gbis
and
and i was driving back from court and i was on a motorcycle and this guy like
this guy i'm just i want to hurt somebody i'm angry i'm pissed off i'm looking
at hard prison
time i'm just angry he's on a motorcycle and i i guess i kind of i cut him off
like i mean i
manipulated the situation i manipulated the situation because i wanted to hurt
somebody
and he pulls over and i get off my bike and i'm literally like in this moment
like
i'm gonna kill this man and the next moment i get off on my bike he pulls out a
badge and like
he's a cop and i'm like oh and i remember the guy like the guy was generally
concerned like hey
man like are you okay like the wrong with you know because he knew like he knew
yeah that's crazy
there was a point in my life too where like i didn't must have been grateful
then that he did
that almost in a way oh yeah i mean if he didn't like who knows what happened i
remember there's one
point in my life you were like i was just going through it i was in the ufc too
at the time and i
was just like i lived in temecula and there was like a big like motorcycle gang
population like i don't
vagos or some and i remember like i just was like yeah i'd lay in bed and like
i was hurting dude like
not like i don't know if it's depressed but it's like well your body's not
supposed to as a key not
supposed to have that much pain inside it so no this is like my 20s now i
remember 20s and like
i just like it gets you build up so much we're like i need i i have to do
something like i need
to hurt somebody to make this go away and i'll never forget it didn't happen
but there was like
i was riding there's a vago and i'm like this is the one this is what's a vago
it's like a gangbanger
like a mortal oh yeah i was like i was like this is like a car wash i was like
this is the like i was like
this is my victim is like this is my crime that like if i can't get away with
it he's a gangbanger
he'll accept it like i could kill this man somewhere if there's not a camera
and there's a chance that we don't get away and i remember like i'll never
forget i went in front of
him and that day and i like boom cut him off and flipped him off fuck you and
then i was like waiting
for him to like follow me somewhere i even had it planned out i was like i'm
gonna ufc i was gonna take
him to this you're already in the ufc yeah i was in temecula i was gonna take
him to like a dirt road
and just kill him beat him even the aaron you like aaron hernandez i just built
beat him to death
and then you know it's exciting it's scary at the same time you're thinking
about doing it and then he
just like i guess he just didn't want it he just drove away flipped me off
drove away but all it took
like all it took was all it would have taken was one other little came to be
like all right you i'm
gonna follow you next thing you know dude i'm fucking i'm gonna be in prison
handcuffed right
because you know you're so angry you don't think about consequences you just
think about like i'm
hurting so much like there's so much pressure in me like i gotta get this girl
i gotta make it go away
yeah it just man it's fucking crazy that uh it just it's so unfair that
how much pressure like sometimes people have to have in them for they didn't
even do yeah you know
well it's because your brain you know it's like your brain tells you that this
cave is bad don't
go there it's like an evolutionary like yeah like so and one of the hardest
things for me it's like
i was brought up in a world that doesn't exist so like i was brought up in this
like primitive
primal up world where like my brain was telling me that you are in a very bad
place and the world's bad
right so it my brain evolved to be violent it evolved to be violent hypersexual
aggressive
and then as a man now i'm in 2023 how do i function yeah like i got to go
through i got to go through
the world as in like i this is not what my brain was evolved for wow so i was
like that's what
training helps almost like a time traveler it must feel like in a way well
because i i involved like
because like my brain evolved in a very primitive way like it evolved in like
oh yeah like you got to
kill this man you got to that girl like there was a communal porn box like
that's not fair yeah but it is what it is it is what it is right right you can't
always keep looking
back at it but you just move on and right now i'm happy bro i mean you're happy
your life's good you
mean you went through some we've all been through some like if you look at the
statistics
of child abuse we've all been through some some people more than others yeah my
life was
disneyland some people i know but i mean i'm just working like as like
as i get older i just stay away from people do you think it's gotten better or
worse over time
oh it definitely better like my mental state of mind like dude having a
girlfriend helps
yeah i know you said that you really and uh slap you're like yeah i really like
having this
so it's like dude whenever she's gone like and mind you i like i could go
anybody i want to fight
don't yeah but like whenever she's gone dude like i would just be in my house
and i started looking
at all the things i own like i have a couch a tv like what i have this i don't
want this
shit and you start like and you start just getting like crazy oh yeah i don't
do i don't do well
alone yeah and that's what that's one of those things too where like a lot of
people with trauma
you self-isolate yourself because it feels good right you want to be alone and
you want to keep
yourself away from people a lot of times like i want if i'm angry or whatever's
going on with me
the last thing i want to do sometimes is put it around anybody else like yeah
exactly you want to
like you want to be most like like all these mass shooters all these killers
like you
want to be alone like you want to be quiet you don't people make you feel outcasted
they don't
make you feel right and so what you do is you listen to those thoughts and you
stay alone
and then you just and in the moment you go out say i'll be at low i'll be alone
i'll go get food
like no sean get out of the house go get food like right do something because
it helps but but it
doesn't help but it doesn't help because now it's you because you have so much
that
risk potential so now i'm in and out and i'm looking at all these people and i'm
just like
anger is just building inside me i'm getting angrier oh so my my girl my girls
helped me a lot function
yeah she's helped me a lot dude do you have like a some fun memories from your
kid like was there
something fun that you guys used to go do like a younger trick-or-treating or
something my brother
i mean my brother was like my dad was he really like but my brother was brutal
to me
like you know you my brother's three years older than me and you're having a he
was like my dad you're
having a him raise me as a kid and all he knows is that he's seen or learned oh
yeah so my mommy
he'd me up beat the out of me like i get i remember i'd get every day my mom
would come back from work
i'd be up with bruises i bet he feels horrible about it uh i mean it's kind of
hard dude because
it's like you're a kid raising a kid right you know right it's almost not even
fair for him to feel
horrible about it yeah you know so it's like i mean i remember we had a prison
whip bro my dad had a
prison whip and my brother would be like if you don't clean the house i'm gonna
whack you this
thing you may hit with a prison whip dude it takes skin off the bone i mean it
takes skin off but
i wouldn't like it it's not good dude it's a big metal plastic whip so you take
my dad then you take
my brother just you know like yeah it adds up dude and it's scary to think man
there's some so many people
go through so much like plastic bro the prison whip is plastic you got to go uh
type in prison that's an
expensive modern prison whip modern prison whip yeah there's a looking at like
the 1500s and
over here nah it's a hard plastic rod bro yeah it's kind of like that but like
that's new age
that's some prison that's a new age but yeah man it's been a good podcast seal
good dude well
i'm trying to think if there's anything else that we can talk about that makes
me
allow a little bit less depressed well i just think no i think just like when
you talk about that kind of
stuff like i do realize like when i'm able to share things like because some
people that's the one of
the gifts that some people have right and i believe this is like you know
people that went through
something that was super really tough right and they're able to get through it
and then if they
are able to articulate what 