Name: Joey Diaz Talks About Settling Down in Jersey, and Leaving L.A. Behind
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Watch the stand-up comedy video 'Joey Diaz Talks About Settling Down in Jersey, and Leaving L.A. Behind' from Theo Von Clips on Comedy Buff. Published 2024-06-05. Transcript available.

Yeah, Joey Diaz, man. Good to see you, brother.
Good to see you, too, my friend.
You, too, man. That was fun last night.
That was a lot of fun.
We've been just seeing you.
It's been four fucking years, Theo.
I know, dude.
Since the pandemic, man. I haven't seen anybody.
Yeah, it's so funny.
I didn't realize how much I missed seeing you
until I got out of the car,
out of the Uber at the mothership,
and I was like, is Joey here?
And they're like, yeah.
And literally, my legs, like I ran upstairs.
Oh, I was so happy.
First person I asked for when I got there,
I'm like, where's fucking Theo?
Yeah.
Like, he'll be here later.
Nah, man, we haven't seen each other.
It's been, uh, it's fucking crazy, man,
what happens to life sometimes.
Yeah, has it been good?
Have you been feeling good in Jersey?
It seems like everything's good.
You look great.
The first fucking year was a struggle
because I was lost.
I was fucking lost.
I was like, you know,
what I was trying to do was, honestly,
was just figure out what happened
the last 30 years.
After the pan,
when the pandemic hit,
we were all gung-ho.
We were very all gung-ho.
Oh, yeah.
But, like, by May of the pandemic,
I was like,
what the fuck happened?
I came here,
I auditioned for Mitzi Shaw,
and I don't know what happened.
Like, here we are.
Yeah.
You know, movies,
talking to this guy,
talking to that guy.
The first year in Jersey,
it was just trying to figure out
coming down.
I was coming down.
I was,
I had committed to coming down
and seeing what life was like
with the fucking,
and the sticks, you know,
and started going to softball games
and basketball games
with my daughter.
Were you playing,
or you were just coaching,
or what?
Nah, I don't even coach.
I just sit there,
I get high,
and I sit there and watch.
Oh, yeah, but still.
A bunch of fucking girls.
You know, it's so funny.
I used to go to my father-in-law's house
in Nashville.
That motherfucker's always
watching girls softball.
And I would look at him and go,
I'm not even going to say
nothing to my wife,
but this is the most pedophilia
fucking thing ever.
An old guy watching girls softball.
Well, guess what?
I became that fucking old guy.
Now I go to her games,
I go to her basketball games.
You know, it's,
there's so much.
Listen, man,
for me to get into comedy,
I lost her family.
I lost her daughter.
You know, she's 34.
I haven't talked.
Thirty fucking four.
Like, this was part of the whole,
like, what happened?
Like, I left Boulder when she was five.
And now she's thirty fucking four.
We haven't spoken in 20 years.
No way.
Twenty fucking years.
Twenty, yeah,
it's got to be 20 years now.
Is it,
are there times where it just hits you
and it just hurts sometimes?
It really hurt in the beginning.
For years, it really took me.
Part of the addiction
and all that shit was that.
And then I made peace with it.
I knew that this wasn't going to work.
It wasn't in the cards
and you got to move on.
Then I had this,
then God gave me a second chance.
And they threw another girl at me.
And I'm like,
what am I going to do here?
So I said,
let me sink in,
you know,
and fucking be a dad.
Just get,
I got a second chance
to do this the right way this time.
And this is what I'm going to do.
Did you,
and that was a real thought in your head.
You're like,
I got this,
this is God giving me a second chance.
Fuck yeah.
You know,
I've gotten,
Theo,
how many second chances have I fucking gotten?
I've got a decent amount.
So,
some second chances you got to jump on
and go,
you know what?
This ain't going to happen again.
Yeah.
I can make peace with myself.
You know,
I heard things,
I wasn't a good dad.
I heard tons of shit from my ex-wife.
And now I'm living it.
You know,
now I'm living,
I got a nice house,
cars,
I'm not a jet setter.
You know that.
I'm not a BMW guy or nothing.
I'm just happy and comfortable.
Yeah.
You know,
I retire in four fucking years.
My daughter collects social security
for three of those years.
The ones I didn't get when my mother died.
So,
everything comes full fucking circle,
man.
I'm not in the mood to go on planes every weekend.
No,
it's a lot.
I'm not.
It's a young man.
It's not a young man's game.
It's a young man's game.
But it's a,
it really is.
It's not even that you can't do it.
It's just,
can you put up?
It's like the stress,
it just wears on you.
You know,
I did it for so long.
I did it for so long.
And we'll forget,
I'll forget sometimes,
Joey,
how long I did this shit for.
I'll like be going to the airport.
I'm like,
fuck,
I just cannot do this.
I cannot get on a plane.
And people were like,
what are you talking about,
man?
And,
but part of my brain is just like,
I've just,
I don't know what time when I wasn't going to the airport.
Yeah.
Or wasn't getting in the car for a fucking haul.
My thing was this.
I dreaded the road.
Yeah.
Until I got in the Uber.
Until you got in the what?
Uber.
Yeah.
Once I get in the Uber,
and I got an edible in me,
and I'm headed to fucking LAX,
look out,
motherfuckers.
Yeah.
Look out.
Come out of friendly sky.
That's what happens to me.
It's the lead up.
Mm-hmm.
It was towards the last year.
I would wake up in the middle of the night going,
I can't believe I booked this trip to this place.
Yeah.
Fuck,
I should have taken that week off,
and I shouldn't have booked this.
I can't believe I got to go to this town this week.
Yeah,
like,
fuck,
he's tickle town or something.
There's always something.
You're like,
fuck,
in Puerto Rico?
Dude,
I did a fucking weekend in Puerto Rico one time,
and I was like,
what the fuck,
some new joint they put?
I was like,
I never should have went,
nine people fucking showed up to a couple gay dudes over there.
I think it was like a sex laundering or whatever,
but I didn't do anything,
but I went and,
you know,
I tried to do my best comedy,
but just fucking unreal,
bro.
Nah,
we've been doing this for a long time,
and you,
some of the shit.
Ah.
And it's like,
I just went back to Jersey,
and I was like,
to top it off,
I hadn't lived in Jersey in 40 years.
You got a driveway over there?
Yeah.
Yeah.
Driveway,
fucking backyard,
I got raccoons.
Yeah.
I got a raccoon that will not leave me the fuck alone.
Really?
And he's become like friends.
He's like buddy now.
He just comes,
he tries to,
I put two bricks on the garbage,
he looks at me at night like,
motherfucker,
you got me again.
Then he leaves.
I put a piece of nicotine gum in that motherfucker.
I didn't see him for a week.
That motherfucker was running up and down fucking my street with nicotine in
him.
But you know,
I live in a great neighborhood.
It's quiet,
Theo.
I live around the corner from Jimmy Florentine.
Oh yeah,
he's an awesome guy.
Awesome guy.
But I mean,
that's a week down.
You go down there,
you're like,
whoa,
I got to learn how to fucking navigate this shit.
Go down where to his house?
No,
no,
to my house.
Like when I moved down to this place.
Oh,
it was quiet.
I'm an hour out of New York City.
I'm an hour 15 out of New York City.
I'm an hour where I was raised from.
It's like,
I'm going to tell you something interesting.
Pandemic started.
I was fucked up.
I'm going to tell you something that you're not going to believe this.
I started doing better going in.
And once I was there a year,
August 19th of 2021,
I was a little better.
I was still withdrawing from the Xanax.
I was having some issues,
but I did something that before I did the knee operation,
because I went back and my knee went to shit as soon as I landed,
like three weeks later,
because I was going to cryo every day in California.
But once I landed here in the pandemic,
there was no more fucking cryo.
Oh,
there's no cryo.
There was nothing.
So my knee went to shit.
I got surgery.
I went,
and one day I was going for a ride,
and I saw a jujitsu school,
a Gracie jujitsu school by my house.
And I went in there,
and I was scared shit.
It's December.
COVID's been around not even a year,
you know,
but people are still like not touching each other and shit.
And they're like,
nah,
we're doing great here.
We only had to close one time.
But when I left there,
I had a doctor's appointment,
like a week later.
And then he told me I had to have knee surgery.
So I didn't go back to that school.
I never went back to talk to him.
And then one day I got a call,
and it's the guy,
the brown belt at the school.
His name is Sean.
He's like,
I just want to check in with you.
I go,
dog,
after I saw you,
I got knee surgery,
so it'll be a while.
This guy kept calling me.
And not selling.
He wasn't selling.
He was just being a nice kid going,
if you want to come in and move a little bit,
it'd just be me and you, man.
Nobody will bother you.
Right.
We'll work on stuff.
And I'm like,
I don't know.
Fucking jujitsu.
I went to jujitsu the same day
that the Soprano movie premiered.
It was September 21st of 2021.
And I remember I walked in there.
I had to cancel the first two,
like I canceled two classes.
Yeah.
Finally,
I go next Wednesday.
Now it's Wednesday.
And I'll never forget going in there
and we did some shit.
And then he goes,
just roll with me for a minute.
And I remember leaving that
and going,
I feel a lot better.
Wow.
Just human touch
with somebody else.
I'm not gay or nothing,
but just that touch
of him fucking submitting me
and grabbing me.
And I was like,
I feel.
And then I went
to the premiere that night
and I was fucking COVID conscious.
I'm like,
I'm going to sit at the beacon
with 2,000 fucking people
to see this movie.
We're going to get COVID.
Yeah.
It wasn't even that.
When I got out,
the driver dropped me
on the corner of the beacon
and I was in a corner
with 500 people.
And they were all like
touching me and shit.
And I remember walking
out of that circle going,
if I don't get COVID now,
I'll never get it.
Went to the movie theater.
Didn't even go
to the premiere party.
Just saw the movie
with my family
and some friends.
I didn't even go
to the party.
But going to that
jiu-jitsu class
and the classes after that,
like I was just going
to take privates
for like six months.
I said,
fuck this.
I'm going into class
with these guys.
Yeah.
I need these guys.
Right.
I need these fucking guys.
I need to talk to them
and touch them
and fucking
be human.
Be around,
be human.
You know,
and that's why
I went home.
I went home.
Listen,
I could have came to Austin.
I could have moved
to Nashville.
I had an opportunity
in Telluride,
Colorado.
I wanted to come
back to Jersey
to find myself.
Do you think
that you've
gathered
what you wanted
to find?
Yeah.
Yeah?
Yeah.
because now I'm at peace.
I'm at peace with myself.
I'm at peace
with my friends,
with my family.
You know,
I'm just at peace.
Did you have any amends
to make whenever you got there
or no?
Everything was pretty chill.
Listen,
I thought about making amends,
but the people
that was going to make amends
still weren't worth
making the amends.
You know,
that was 40 fucking years ago.
Knock it off
and deal with it.
My amends
was doing something
with my life,
right?
That was my amends.
If you really cared about me
or cared about anybody,
you look at them
and go,
that dude fucked me over
30 years ago.
Well,
guess what?
He did something
with his life.
You have two options.
The guy fucked me over,
but he died in a car accident.
Fuck him.
He deserved what he got.
He was a scumbag.
Or,
you know what, man?
The guy robbed me.
He was having problems
as a kid.
I'm happy he got
his life together.
Yeah.
And that's what it was like.
I'm not gonna fucking apologize
to nobody now.
That was a long fucking time ago.
Get over it.
Yeah,
I didn't know if anything
wild had happened.
No,
no,
no,
no.
I don't have anything
like that either.
I don't think from my hometown.
No,
I just wanted to go home
and recoup L.A.
You know,
when you've been there
for a long time,
it's a number on your head
for a while.
Like,
just,
you know,
we thought there was
a lot of rejection.
Oh,
yeah.
A lot of rejection.
driving across town,
a lot of parking,
walking,
getting in,
checking at the station,
walking there,
don't even know my lines,
don't even give a fuck,
hate the place,
hate myself,
fuck them,
fuck me,
walk in there,
nervous as fuck,
bomb the shit,
walk outside,
scream the N-word in my head,
go back out through
the parking thing,
return my badge,
get my ID back,
get in my car,
and fucking go home.
It is,
you know,
people have no idea
what we did.
We got to L.A.,
figured it out.
That's true.
Figured it out.
Which,
listen,
that's alone.
That alone.
The parking meters alone.
Quarter gets you
six minutes,
dude.
Dog,
I had so many tickets
when I first moved to L.A.
They took a car.
I mean,
my apartment got towed.
Remember,
I lived in my car.
Ralphie May and those guys
go,
oh,
your apartment got towed.
It was that scrambling.
I would do it
20 more times.
Yeah.
That not having money
to eat lunch
and having to rob
the gas station
for a pack of cigarettes
on the way to Josh Wolf's house
to get a turkey burger,
you know,
to fucking borrow eight bucks
to go to Sunset Grill
and get a burger
with the guy
with the bum leg.
You know,
nobody knows that,
what it's like
to showcase
for Jay and Mossad
and him telling you,
like,
why are you here?
Yeah.
You know,
and thank God,
Jay,
you know,
Mitzi passed me
right off the bat.
Thank God.
But then it was
seven years of
I can't get an agent
and you can't do this
and you can't do that.
Oh, yeah.
And most people
would have quit,
Theo.
We did something
that a lot of people
just can't handle.
They move back
and they go,
you know what,
it wasn't for me.
And I,
listen,
I understand that.
I fucking definitely
understand that.
But for me,
I think it was time
to move on
to the next chapter.
I'm trying to find
what that chapter is now.
You wrote a book.
Wrote a book.
That was cool, man.
I feel bad that I haven't
even read it,
but I did just order it today.
I didn't even know
that you had written it,
I don't think.
Actually,
you know what,
I think when I did
your podcast last time
over Zoom,
I think you remember
telling me
that you had done it.
But that's awesome,
tremendous.
I was trying to write
that book for fucking
20 years.
I know,
a lot of comics
always have that book
milling around in them.
And then I kept writing
and making notes
and then I kept trying
to hook up with a writer.
Tremendous.
And then I hooked up
with Jimmy Florentine's niece.
Really?
Yeah,
his young niece
and she fucking helped me
and listen, man,
we sold some copies,
we made it to number nine
on the audio book
in New York Times,
which for a dirty comic
and a criminal,
that's not too fucking bad
where I come from.
Rocky got that cock
on him, baby.
Rocky got that cock
on him, motherfucker.
Let's go, dude.

Joey Diaz Talks About Settling Down in Jersey, and Leaving L.A. Behind

Yeah, Joey Diaz, man. Good to see you, brother.
Good to see you, too, my friend.
You, too, man. That was fun last night.
That was a lot of fun.
We've been just seeing you.
It's been four fucking years, Theo.
I know, dude.
Since the pandemic, man. I haven't seen anybody.
Yeah, it's so funny.
I didn't realize how much I missed seeing you
until I got out of the car,
out of the Uber at the mothership,
and I was like, is Joey here?
And they're like, yeah.
And literally, my legs, like I ran upstairs.
Oh, I was so happy.
First person I asked for when I got there,
I'm like, where's fucking Theo?
Yeah.
Like, he'll be here later.
Nah, man, we haven't seen each other.
It's been, uh, it's fucking crazy, man,
what happens to life sometimes.
Yeah, has it been good?
Have you been feeling good in Jersey?
It seems like everything's good.
You look great.
The first fucking year was a struggle
because I was lost.
I was fucking lost.
I was like, you know,
what I was trying to do was, honestly,
was just figure out what happened
the last 30 years.
After the pan,
when the pandemic hit,
we were all gung-ho.
We were very all gung-ho.
Oh, yeah.
But, like, by May of the pandemic,
I was like,
what the fuck happened?
I came here,
I auditioned for Mitzi Shaw,
and I don't know what happened.
Like, here we are.
Yeah.
You know, movies,
talking to this guy,
talking to that guy.
The first year in Jersey,
it was just trying to figure out
coming down.
I was coming down.
I was,
I had committed to coming down
and seeing what life was like
with the fucking,
and the sticks, you know,
and started going to softball games
and basketball games
with my daughter.
Were you playing,
or you were just coaching,
or what?
Nah, I don't even coach.
I just sit there,
I get high,
and I sit there and watch.
Oh, yeah, but still.
A bunch of fucking girls.
You know, it's so funny.
I used to go to my father-in-law's house
in Nashville.
That motherfucker's always
watching girls softball.
And I would look at him and go,
I'm not even going to say
nothing to my wife,
but this is the most pedophilia
fucking thing ever.
An old guy watching girls softball.
Well, guess what?
I became that fucking old guy.
Now I go to her games,
I go to her basketball games.
You know, it's,
there's so much.
Listen, man,
for me to get into comedy,
I lost her family.
I lost her daughter.
You know, she's 34.
I haven't talked.
Thirty fucking four.
Like, this was part of the whole,
like, what happened?
Like, I left Boulder when she was five.
And now she's thirty fucking four.
We haven't spoken in 20 years.
No way.
Twenty fucking years.
Twenty, yeah,
it's got to be 20 years now.
Is it,
are there times where it just hits you
and it just hurts sometimes?
It really hurt in the beginning.
For years, it really took me.
Part of the addiction
and all that shit was that.
And then I made peace with it.
I knew that this wasn't going to work.
It wasn't in the cards
and you got to move on.
Then I had this,
then God gave me a second chance.
And they threw another girl at me.
And I'm like,
what am I going to do here?
So I said,
let me sink in,
you know,
and fucking be a dad.
Just get,
I got a second chance
to do this the right way this time.
And this is what I'm going to do.
Did you,
and that was a real thought in your head.
You're like,
I got this,
this is God giving me a second chance.
Fuck yeah.
You know,
I've gotten,
Theo,
how many second chances have I fucking gotten?
I've got a decent amount.
So,
some second chances you got to jump on
and go,
you know what?
This ain't going to happen again.
Yeah.
I can make peace with myself.
You know,
I heard things,
I wasn't a good dad.
I heard tons of shit from my ex-wife.
And now I'm living it.
You know,
now I'm living,
I got a nice house,
cars,
I'm not a jet setter.
You know that.
I'm not a BMW guy or nothing.
I'm just happy and comfortable.
Yeah.
You know,
I retire in four fucking years.
My daughter collects social security
for three of those years.
The ones I didn't get when my mother died.
So,
everything comes full fucking circle,
man.
I'm not in the mood to go on planes every weekend.
No,
it's a lot.
I'm not.
It's a young man.
It's not a young man's game.
It's a young man's game.
But it's a,
it really is.
It's not even that you can't do it.
It's just,
can you put up?
It's like the stress,
it just wears on you.
You know,
I did it for so long.
I did it for so long.
And we'll forget,
I'll forget sometimes,
Joey,
how long I did this shit for.
I'll like be going to the airport.
I'm like,
fuck,
I just cannot do this.
I cannot get on a plane.
And people were like,
what are you talking about,
man?
And,
but part of my brain is just like,
I've just,
I don't know what time when I wasn't going to the airport.
Yeah.
Or wasn't getting in the car for a fucking haul.
My thing was this.
I dreaded the road.
Yeah.
Until I got in the Uber.
Until you got in the what?
Uber.
Yeah.
Once I get in the Uber,
and I got an edible in me,
and I'm headed to fucking LAX,
look out,
motherfuckers.
Yeah.
Look out.
Come out of friendly sky.
That's what happens to me.
It's the lead up.
Mm-hmm.
It was towards the last year.
I would wake up in the middle of the night going,
I can't believe I booked this trip to this place.
Yeah.
Fuck,
I should have taken that week off,
and I shouldn't have booked this.
I can't believe I got to go to this town this week.
Yeah,
like,
fuck,
he's tickle town or something.
There's always something.
You're like,
fuck,
in Puerto Rico?
Dude,
I did a fucking weekend in Puerto Rico one time,
and I was like,
what the fuck,
some new joint they put?
I was like,
I never should have went,
nine people fucking showed up to a couple gay dudes over there.
I think it was like a sex laundering or whatever,
but I didn't do anything,
but I went and,
you know,
I tried to do my best comedy,
but just fucking unreal,
bro.
Nah,
we've been doing this for a long time,
and you,
some of the shit.
Ah.
And it's like,
I just went back to Jersey,
and I was like,
to top it off,
I hadn't lived in Jersey in 40 years.
You got a driveway over there?
Yeah.
Yeah.
Driveway,
fucking backyard,
I got raccoons.
Yeah.
I got a raccoon that will not leave me the fuck alone.
Really?
And he's become like friends.
He's like buddy now.
He just comes,
he tries to,
I put two bricks on the garbage,
he looks at me at night like,
motherfucker,
you got me again.
Then he leaves.
I put a piece of nicotine gum in that motherfucker.
I didn't see him for a week.
That motherfucker was running up and down fucking my street with nicotine in
him.
But you know,
I live in a great neighborhood.
It's quiet,
Theo.
I live around the corner from Jimmy Florentine.
Oh yeah,
he's an awesome guy.
Awesome guy.
But I mean,
that's a week down.
You go down there,
you're like,
whoa,
I got to learn how to fucking navigate this shit.
Go down where to his house?
No,
no,
to my house.
Like when I moved down to this place.
Oh,
it was quiet.
I'm an hour out of New York City.
I'm an hour 15 out of New York City.
I'm an hour where I was raised from.
It's like,
I'm going to tell you something interesting.
Pandemic started.
I was fucked up.
I'm going to tell you something that you're not going to believe this.
I started doing better going in.
And once I was there a year,
August 19th of 2021,
I was a little better.
I was still withdrawing from the Xanax.
I was having some issues,
but I did something that before I did the knee operation,
because I went back and my knee went to shit as soon as I landed,
like three weeks later,
because I was going to cryo every day in California.
But once I landed here in the pandemic,
there was no more fucking cryo.
Oh,
there's no cryo.
There was nothing.
So my knee went to shit.
I got surgery.
I went,
and one day I was going for a ride,
and I saw a jujitsu school,
a Gracie jujitsu school by my house.
And I went in there,
and I was scared shit.
It's December.
COVID's been around not even a year,
you know,
but people are still like not touching each other and shit.
And they're like,
nah,
we're doing great here.
We only had to close one time.
But when I left there,
I had a doctor's appointment,
like a week later.
And then he told me I had to have knee surgery.
So I didn't go back to that school.
I never went back to talk to him.
And then one day I got a call,
and it's the guy,
the brown belt at the school.
His name is Sean.
He's like,
I just want to check in with you.
I go,
dog,
after I saw you,
I got knee surgery,
so it'll be a while.
This guy kept calling me.
And not selling.
He wasn't selling.
He was just being a nice kid going,
if you want to come in and move a little bit,
it'd just be me and you, man.
Nobody will bother you.
Right.
We'll work on stuff.
And I'm like,
I don't know.
Fucking jujitsu.
I went to jujitsu the same day
that the Soprano movie premiered.
It was September 21st of 2021.
And I remember I walked in there.
I had to cancel the first two,
like I canceled two classes.
Yeah.
Finally,
I go next Wednesday.
Now it's Wednesday.
And I'll never forget going in there
and we did some shit.
And then he goes,
just roll with me for a minute.
And I remember leaving that
and going,
I feel a lot better.
Wow.
Just human touch
with somebody else.
I'm not gay or nothing,
but just that touch
of him fucking submitting me
and grabbing me.
And I was like,
I feel.
And then I went
to the premiere that night
and I was fucking COVID conscious.
I'm like,
I'm going to sit at the beacon
with 2,000 fucking people
to see this movie.
We're going to get COVID.
Yeah.
It wasn't even that.
When I got out,
the driver dropped me
on the corner of the beacon
and I was in a corner
with 500 people.
And they were all like
touching me and shit.
And I remember walking
out of that circle going,
if I don't get COVID now,
I'll never get it.
Went to the movie theater.
Didn't even go
to the premiere party.
Just saw the movie
with my family
and some friends.
I didn't even go
to the party.
But going to that
jiu-jitsu class
and the classes after that,
like I was just going
to take privates
for like six months.
I said,
fuck this.
I'm going into class
with these guys.
Yeah.
I need these guys.
Right.
I need these fucking guys.
I need to talk to them
and touch them
and fucking
be human.
Be around,
be human.
You know,
and that's why
I went home.
I went home.
Listen,
I could have came to Austin.
I could have moved
to Nashville.
I had an opportunity
in Telluride,
Colorado.
I wanted to come
back to Jersey
to find myself.
Do you think
that you've
gathered
what you wanted
to find?
Yeah.
Yeah?
Yeah.
because now I'm at peace.
I'm at peace with myself.
I'm at peace
with my friends,
with my family.
You know,
I'm just at peace.
Did you have any amends
to make whenever you got there
or no?
Everything was pretty chill.
Listen,
I thought about making amends,
but the people
that was going to make amends
still weren't worth
making the amends.
You know,
that was 40 fucking years ago.
Knock it off
and deal with it.
My amends
was doing something
with my life,
right?
That was my amends.
If you really cared about me
or cared about anybody,
you look at them
and go,
that dude fucked me over
30 years ago.
Well,
guess what?
He did something
with his life.
You have two options.
The guy fucked me over,
but he died in a car accident.
Fuck him.
He deserved what he got.
He was a scumbag.
Or,
you know what, man?
The guy robbed me.
He was having problems
as a kid.
I'm happy he got
his life together.
Yeah.
And that's what it was like.
I'm not gonna fucking apologize
to nobody now.
That was a long fucking time ago.
Get over it.
Yeah,
I didn't know if anything
wild had happened.
No,
no,
no,
no.
I don't have anything
like that either.
I don't think from my hometown.
No,
I just wanted to go home
and recoup L.A.
You know,
when you've been there
for a long time,
it's a number on your head
for a while.
Like,
just,
you know,
we thought there was
a lot of rejection.
Oh,
yeah.
A lot of rejection.
driving across town,
a lot of parking,
walking,
getting in,
checking at the station,