Name: Kevin Gates Opens Up About Some of His Darkest Times
Uploaded: 2025-07-02T14:15:08.000Z
Description: Watch the stand-up comedy video 'Kevin Gates Opens Up About Some of His Darkest Times' from Theo Von Clips on Comedy Buff. Published 2025-07-02. Transcript available.

Watch the stand-up comedy video 'Kevin Gates Opens Up About Some of His Darkest Times' from Theo Von Clips on Comedy Buff. Published 2025-07-02. Transcript available.

how did you start to get to know yourself right because you talked about that
um solitude really
solitude because you're one of the few people you're one of the few kind of
rappers i feel like
that there are that i've met or experienced or paid attention to that i know of
that talks about
that kind of stuff their relationship with themselves right most of the things
that we did
excuse me i can't say we i'm gonna say me i'm gonna speak for me all right most
of the things
that i did in my life that people would consider heroic or violent uh that i
got stripes for
that was out of fear or seeking validation from somebody older than me what
when you look on your
life what's like what are some of the worst pain that you feel like you have
ever been in physical
emotional emotional probably i would say or mental like because i've heard you
talk about trauma and
overcoming past traumas you don't hear a lot of people talk like that you know
so like i'm just
like recently um 2020 i was gonna kill myself damn i had deleted my uh my
instagram for like a year
and a half i was gonna kill myself because i i only felt appreciated for my
ability to do
and then i was always looking at instagram and it was like i was comparison i
was comparing and i spoke
about this before i was comparing my life to other people life and comparison
really is the
killer of all joy and i didn't understand that until i started looking at my
life like
damn like i'm seeing everybody highlight real but at the end of the day i'm
just me but everybody
else living so great but that's just the highlights that's not what they going
through every day
and it took me getting off instagram and getting off social media period to see
that people really do
love me and enjoy the world and start having gratitude like think about the
things you're grateful for
not what you don't have and not how shit not going but think about all the good
shit and just be
thankful like i'm grateful for this i'm grateful for that and that's when
things started to kind of change
for me a lot of people say that kind of stuff but it's not a practice in their
life right it's not
like a real truth that they're living i think that's one thing to me that's
interesting by you it feels
like that's really how you have chosen to live your life what were like
practices i don't have
i'm gonna be honest every day not gonna be a good day right for me but i'm
still gonna go to the gym
right because that is my theory and i kind of train myself to know that
whenever i have like a
fucked up feeling like the days that i i don't even want to go them the days
that i had the best
workouts i didn't kind of start playing a game with myself i know when certain
people started texting
me and it's low vibrational people something good must be about to happen there's
got to be a test
something good about to happen and i just started training myself to look at it
like that and that's
really how it be going now yeah did you have self-hatred and stuff did you deal
with that of course
how'd you know you had it my actions you know who told me who kind of started
the conversation
i was talking to plaz one day really yeah and it may not seem like it but that's
a real intelligent
dude so he was like man case that's something i be noticing bro he said case
man you be acting like
a ugly man i said what you mean you just be you be moving around like a ugly
man and you not no
ugly you handsome but i'm just saying you be like a ugly and i'll be like what
you mean man you got to
have some sake here they with you okay nobody be just touching you and then we
were sitting out at
the table and a lady was trying to tell me he said hold on i'm delicate i ain't
know what he meant but
he was talking about setting those energetic boundaries for yourself like
everybody not supposed to have
access to you because it's texting on your spirit it's draining it's draining
certain phone calls is
draining oh hello yeah what's going on they about to tell you some some bad
news i don't want to hear
that yeah maybe that's my ego you you act like you don't care i don't it's not
that i don't give a
fuck i could just give a fuck less yeah i care about me right i don't want to
hear that damn yeah it's
so true man there's a person that you'll take it on a person that don't you're
not doing the work
every day so it's like i'm doing the work every day so a person that's not
doing the work every day
it's really nothing you could tell me because i'm doing the work every day
like i go weeks sometime without eating when i'm fasting when i need clarity i
just stop eating
i'm three days in no food you wouldn't even go three hours yeah i'm hungry i
have a headache
that's your body detoxing so i don't even listen to people like that yeah oh
yeah people don't care
people get all fattened out or whatever they cook yeah people just i mean food
could be used as a
drug sometimes sometimes food could be used as a coping mechanism because i
used to use food as a
coping mechanism sometimes i overeat or sometimes i wouldn't what would your
snack be if you had a
destined like an evening snack nighttime snack goodnight kevin or whatever
snack now or then back then
i used to drink a lot of syrup straight syrup no i used to mix it with like the
pineapple or
the pineapple sun kiss that's when activists was out i used it like the coffee
syrup i used to mix it
with pineapple sun kiss sprite and mountain dew them was my favorites damn and
some syrup yeah what kind of
low cabin light or whatever uh-uh and then i used to have to eat what was my
thing my favorite thing to
eat i like the dim look crust the uncrustables the lip with peanut butter and
jelly i like the dim
and what else i used to eat something else i used to eat all the time
i don't know doritos maybe or something i don't know if it was chicken wings it
was something
i forgot it was something i used to eat all the time i forgot it was i know it
was unhealthy whatever
it was but you're talking about drugs yeah i used to do codeine syrup yeah okay
i didn't know what
you're talking about at first yeah wow you were addicted to it i don't say
addicted but you enjoy
i didn't like it i loved it yeah yeah i loved it but now i never went to rehab
either you didn't
rehabs for quitters yeah i'm not trying to quit how but you don't do that
anymore though because i found
a new drug fitness yeah my new drug of choice do you notice though are you able
to notice a different
feeling of how much different you feel making those yeah i miss choices i yes i'm
gonna be honest and i hate
to say what i'm about to say when people be like i miss the old kevin i get it
because i missed the old
eminem when he was on drugs yeah that's the eminem i like that's the eminem i
like i like the eminem
that was on drugs oh so i know what people mean when they man i'm mr old kevin
i'm like i get it
i get it because you know i miss him too yeah i do but i'm not about to
sacrifice the way i feel
for that like i love where i'm at now well i think that's a trap too is to stay
where you are
you know it's a trap and you can grow with me or you can grow without me but
either way it's on with
an upper with me but i do get it though when people say man i miss the old kevin
because i miss the old
eminem i do i miss the old eminem i swear to god i do oh yeah i believe that i'm
mr there's times in
my own life that i miss there's times in my own life where i felt like i was
funnier or like had
better ideas and stuff but things just change and sometimes it's different i
like i like where i'm
at now yeah this i like where i'm at now man i'm a mother supermodel man i love
where i'm at now
this different now i used to couldn't even do the wheel to add we're not i do
that effortless
really i go jogging in the morning effortless it's just automatic when i
stretch it's effortless
when i my it's just effortless and i i just i do everything better and i hate
to say
what i just said but it's the god honest truth i just i wouldn't change this
for the world
it was time drinking sir my dick wouldn't even get hard oh yeah and not to get
off on those
sexually related type but i had erectile dysfunction at 20 what 23 24 years old
because all the drugs i was
doing so i'm okay oh never trade that for this i love where i'm at now i can
sing better
like my singing voice has matured now because i'm not on drugs so i i love
where i'm at now the music
that i make is i make music that i can work out in the gym too now so i you
know not other i get it
though i get it though i get it i understand yeah but i don't care but i
understand yeah