Name: Theo and Louis C.K. Share Their Struggles
Uploaded: 2025-09-19T16:56:26.000Z
Description: Watch the stand-up comedy video 'Theo and Louis C.K. Share Their Struggles' from Theo Von Clips on Comedy Buff. Published 2025-09-19. Transcript available.

Watch the stand-up comedy video 'Theo and Louis C.K. Share Their Struggles' from Theo Von Clips on Comedy Buff. Published 2025-09-19. Transcript available.

Theo and Louis C.K. Share Their Struggles

and then uh you can cut it out if you don't want it set on the air but you
you you told me about this program you told me about slaa and about yeah about
a 12-step approach
to what i was suffering from and uh yeah i was so amazed that you didn't that
you didn't have
some of the familiarity with it i never heard of it and i didn't think it was
for me at all
you told me about it and i was like yeah that's yeah that's not for me and uh
you become such a role
model to me through that program man you become like somebody that like when
you talk i listen
when you want to know how i feel i know you mean it you know when you like um
yeah man i mean you
become like just a real role model to me you know you become somebody that i i
aspire to be able to
get through some of the problems that i have um because i've seen you get
through them man you
well look at that theo because you brought me into this shit so it's like you
if you if you reach out
to somebody that's on the outside and and take their hand and pull them in they
can end up teaching
you something and it's the same for me because like like when we were i loved
having you as a i wouldn't
have gone into it if i didn't know somebody and then by the way you took me
behind this curtain i was
like i know a bunch of these guys i had no idea but i remember like i mean to
get a specific for a
second there was one point in my life where during when i got into this program
where i was like
in what we call withdrawal so i was like this crazy idea to me don't have
sexual release for several
months in a row what like i mean since i first fucking came clear liquid yeah
uh i've done it
every day oh yeah and then what that did to the relationships of my life and my
inability to feel
real feelings and then the the kind of reckless behavior and the things i i did
with other people
that came out um but there was a point where i was like okay so just don't like
don't at all
and the thing i loved about it's like a time that's so important i remember
when you were doing that i
was like dang yeah because i would call you this dude's going deep yeah and you're
like how long
has it been and i'd say like two months since i jerked off and you would go
what's it like out there
man and when you said that like i think about that all the time what's it like
out there man it was
like i'm an astronaut who cut from the court and i'm just out and that's what
it started to feel
like i got out of the gravitational pull i got out of the cycle because every
time you want something
and you get it you just go back to square one you keep going back to to just oh
that's my cycle
has just been like for years i was texting women right and like let's meet up
sometime and we would
never meet up right and it got to a certain point in certain years i didn't
even know if we knew who
each other were anymore right but we would both i meet almost every day should
we meet up this week
yeah i mean for years but just little moments of trying to get approval right
yes and then going
back to like and the the group isn't like everybody's not like everybody may
maybe people have some
perversion stuff but a lot of it's just like kind of pornography intimacy
disorders like inability to
connect it's not like well it's huge uh when you do the steps you learn what
how you got to where you
are and you learn what what in your history made you this way yeah and you get
some guidelines for
trying to undo it and the thing about going through withdrawal is that by not
pressing the reset button
you go to a new place every day every day you don't do it you're in a new place
you feel new feelings
and i started realizing that my feelings my actual emotions were coming online
for the first time really
in my life i don't know having a support group and being in a like being able
to go to meetings and
share what's going on listen to somebody else say something that just unlock
something in you that
you never could have unlocked yeah fuck it's huge it's beautiful yeah i mean it
yeah it's unbelievable
it's like you could spend the rest of your life trying to figure that out and
then suddenly somebody just
helped you get to a new place um one thing i love about meetings is like you
know there's like the
structure to these meetings like in any other 12-step program where you get
three minutes to share right
and the regiment of that it's like perfect it's kind of like the way baseball
is perfect like someone
figured out just the right amount of feet to make the you know that the the
throat of first is always
close yeah 12-step meetings have like this perfect this three minutes and there's
a spiritual timekeeper
a guy who just says at when you're one minute away from finishing yeah it says
one minute
and you acknowledge it you know thank you one minute right there's that thing
but in two minutes you can
get really lost into what a guy's saying and you get to have this moment where
like a guy's going like
you know i keep a lighter fluid under my pillow because of the days that my
father used to come to my room
and i'd want to burn him alive thank you one minute and i like these little
interruptions and
because it reminds you yeah you're in your shit but right wrap it up there's
other guys waiting to
talk and the world's going around and it's you know that was a long time ago
man get over it
i'm glad you're sharing it but you only got three minutes you know yeah dude it's
monday brother
yeah it's monday yeah that sounds like a fucking thursday share yeah i need to
check in some shit about
what i did today you know oh dude yeah even things like i mean i was looking at
pornography the other day
just being able to like text somebody and say that to him you know just like
yeah and then just like
how many times do i want to go back to this feeling of after i look at
pornography i just feel like
empty you know or i just don't feel like myself the next day that's been the
biggest thing that helped
change it for me is like noticing that like the next day i don't feel like
myself i feel like i'm
a little scattered i feel like i still need to recover from something i still
need to like
like put my aura back together a little bit yeah because you ran away into
pornography so when you
when you you feel you get let's like you froze yourself yeah and the next day
you start to thaw
and that's uncomfortable it's like feeling your leg coming back to uh you know
after falling asleep
yeah it's it's tingles and it's bad it's a bad feeling you want to be in one or
the other you know
so it is it's hard the hard thing about being in recovery from addiction
something like what we have
is that you can look at something like pornography uh but it's you're aware now
so you know there's a
cost to it yeah you know there's a cost but that's but thank god because you
get so much of life back
and being able to tell another guy like i'm i'm doing this because there's a
lot of shame involved
with sex and love addiction like all this kind of thing it's when so when you
tell somebody i'm an
alcoholic people have a lot of sympathy for that yeah this one's a little
tougher so you really need the
group because these are a bunch of guys who get it and so when you tell them um
i'm struggling not to
do this the the the genius of that is just that someone else knows it now that's
all that it's too
much for you to carry at some point for anybody who's an addict or not life got
to be too much to
handle it just was overwhelming so you found a way to shift away from it and
thank god you did
like thank god i had that when i was a kid i don't think i could have handled
life without this thing
that was right there to soothe me yeah if i didn't have that thing i mean i
found pornography and then
i would right when i would get home i would go i would look at pornography and
stuff like that
because it was a way to make myself feel good it was like i felt so horrible
you know and i didn't even
know i felt so horrible about myself i just felt like a fucking cavern you know
i felt like
i mean i felt embarrassed like i didn't even want to impose myself on people
because
i didn't i don't know i just nobody had time for me right and so it made me
think that i wasn't
worth people's time so i always just felt like i just couldn't say what i
needed to say i just
didn't want to waste your time i didn't want to waste that feeling because you
would see that i was
a waste like yeah if i could just how old were you probably 10 11 i mean
imagine a 10 year old kid
like look at a 10 year old kid's face and imagine that he feels like a cavern
inside that's a hard
thing to carry and so you take on this thing that helps you just simplify life
right i do this i i
search i search i push i push i get to ecstasy i'm calm right and then it's
homeostasis it regulates
it's just regulating right and when you if you're exposed to sex early in life
which i was
in a way that was yeah you get you that's it that's it that's what you got and
then later in
life when your feelings are supposed to be developing they're they're still
under this muffle thing so
they're not developing properly and you and you're ashamed of what you're doing
yeah but when you the
thing about a fellowship it's just so simple it's not god it's not something
that's better than you
it's a bunch of guys who just have the same problem and you're able to just go
you know i'm having this
problem they go yeah i get it they don't give you a solution they just go i
know it too now and you
go like now i got two souls to carry this problem and i'm there for him when he
needs that yeah and
that just makes it a tiny bit easier so that you can uh go to the alternative
which is why do i do this
thing it's because i feel like a cavern and the detaching from the behavior and
stopping the thing
i couldn't stop doing gave me the opportunity to go what's in that cave what's
in that is there
something in that that's worthwhile is it is how bad is it what's wrong with
the cave is it that i'm
alone in there am i alone in there uh it gave me the courage to sit in the cave
alone and take a look
around and go like you know with the flashlight man there's like crystals on
the right roof it's
fucking cool in here you know how'd i get in here there is a there's a little
there's a little door
where does that go and starting to really be okay with i'm just here i'm in
here and then a feeling
comes that the kind of things i used to run from you know like deep sadness i
miss my mom something
like that i don't just have it i just want to have it now i just want to have
it and i've got a new
habit which is that when i get that huh that used to lead to an addictive
moment when i get that ah
i know that if i pull away from it it gets worse it actually only hurts if i
pull away but if i get
up to it and i go what do you got and i see colors and i see beautiful things
you know and that's the
potential is to is to welcome every feeling and then you don't want out and i
love my life so
much now that the last thing i want to do is is is gray it out with i know uh
with a kind of chronic
sexual half-release fake thing watching a sad person on a video in a weirdly
lit room and i'm i'm like
in it yeah i just don't come on buddy and i don't even know who i'm cheering
for someone's in
pornography yeah that's crazy yeah which team are you on yeah yeah and you're
like uh tie let's just
have a tie yeah um but oh dude yeah it's like uh oh that sedative and it's just
a full body sedative
but yeah i would um yeah i didn't have it it it marred really my ability to
make a lot of connections
because like i'll even notice still in my life and i still have i still need to
go through my steps
again i need to check in with my sponsor today but um like if i'm if i'm face
to face with a woman
and they say something nice about me i can't stay there for a second really i
cannot like even so a
woman looking at me really i just i can't i just have what happens what's what
makes you